My Past,Present and Future

-you have a boyfriend, stop harrassing mine. bitch.

2011-12-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

You have a boyfriend, stop harrassing mine. Bitch.

Stop spamming likes on every single video, picture share and whatnot he puts up.

You seek attention from him when you have your own boyfriend.

Girls like you, who act so demurely and innocent just because you're wearing a hijab; your attention seeking attitude makes me sick.

Having one boy isn't enough, you have to ask mine out for a private one-on-one lunch?

No, I haven't forgotten anything you've done.

There's most likely more that you've done that he feels is normal but it isn't normal in my eyes.

How is a one-on-one lunch normal when you're attached, when he's attached?

How is calling his attention from you normal when you have your own boy to miss?

Just because you had a long friendship doesn't mean I'm okay with you.

Just because you wear a hijab means you're a good girl by default.

The way I see it, you're a flirt hiding behind your hijab and I don't care if my boyfriend chides me for all I've said because I downright detest/despise you.

You're such a bitch in a hijab; like a malignant tumor that's never going away.

I wish he had the balls to cut off all ties with you; a wolf in sheep's clothing.

Fucking slut-whore bitch.

Fucking angry rant and it's still not enough.

-you sit there in your heartache

2011-12-16T03:53:00.002+08:00

Let it never be said, the romance is dead

'Cos there's so little else occupying my head

There is nothing I need except the function to breathe

But I'm not really fussed, doesn't matter to me

I played Guitar Hero with my sister at night and we played some great songs.

I do many things to keep myself occupied because it hurts being apart from you when you're all i think about.

Army takes up so much of you that when you have time for me, I don't have time for you due to other commitments with my family.

Your phone calls run short and your texts are never constant because of your hectic army lifestyle.

Before you enlisted, we took time for granted and now, each second is like a precious treasure.

I am sorry for always being busy. I am sorry I put you aside for other commitments.

I am sorry that you are always busy in army. I am sorry for being short-tempered when we do spend time together.

I am sorry.

Despite everything, you never fail to make me smile whenever you can with a simple text of 'I love you' and other sweet texts.

I wonder if I make you smile too?

-its lonely without you

2011-10-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

aaaaah~

I miss your smell, our talks, your presence.

It's lonely without you around.

It's like BMT all over again. ):

Oh well. Life's like that.

On other things, my hearing has almost recovered fully.

Still, developed habits that work around using just one ear can come in useful.

I stopped blocking out my surrounding noise/background by just listening to music with my left ear PLUS the volume is on the 2nd level. And I can still hear the music.

Hurr. Never know how much you're actually damaging your hearing by listening to music using headphones, etc, especially at loud volumes.

Dan has drilled the habit of keeping fit in me, even if it is a small effort as compared to what he does.

(INSERT THUMBS UP HERE.)

For the past week during his block leave, I spent most of it with him; just being with him.

It's amazing how plans don't work out the way you want them to, but in the end, it turns out more special and even memorable than you expected.

The small things that he does for me, the level of understanding that he shows to someone I deem as undeserving(in other words, myself); I can never understand it.

The heart to heart talks that we have, spans over countless of hours.

I could never get bored of talking to you, hearing your voice. I could never be sick of someone like you.

The touch of your hand, your warmth, without words speak volumes about how much you care for me.

I wonder if I do the same for you?

If at some point, I'm not the one for you, could I do what was best for you?

Because I know, I am a selfish human being..

Do I truly deserve to be this happy right now? :/

I want to keep that smile of yours as long as possible. Even if it's selfish of me, I want you to keep smiling even if I wasn't in the picture, even if I can't let you go from my heart.

You've saved me countless of times, maybe one day, I could save you too. :')

-ableism happening

2011-09-21T16:05:00.002+08:00

Only when you lose something, do you realize the value of it

Last weekend, I lost my hearing.

Mostly, I was alright. People treated me the same way, some forgetting that I'm temporarily deaf in my right ear. Not so different from the usual.

What was different?

When I realized how much we actually depend on our ears, to hear, to listen, to warn, to feel emotion, I felt ashamed. Ashamed of how all this time, I took my sense of hearing for granted. My sense of sight for granted. Touch, smell, talk. The smallest things in life that almost everyone takes for granted.

Having just one ear to listen to everything, it's not easy. I pretend like it doesn't bother me, but deep down, it hurts. Being different, even temporarily, even if people treat you the same way they always do.. There is always that small difference, being unable to really hear what people say, making them repeat themselves countless of times. I know that it gets irritating. I don't push my luck if I don't really hear things they say. I smile and nod, and make an assumption of what's being said from what little I hear.

I don't know if I will get my hearing back. I may or may not. But it's okay. I now appreciate what I have, or do not have. If I'm meant to be like this, it's going to be alright.

'I may be deaf in my right ear after this..'

'It doesn't change a thing, I'd love you still.'

Love makes you a strong, reliable person. I may not be able to predict the future, but right now, all I want is to be with you, someone who loves me for all my imperfections, just the way I am.

-conflicting thoughts

2011-09-21T15:36:00.003+08:00

All this time, you were far away.You didn't bother with me, only when I took the time to acknowledge you. I gave up because I know sometimes friendship dies off.. No matter how long it the friendship took to build and last, sometimes the distance happens a little at a time and you don't realize it. Maybe we were drifting apart all this time. I can't say its not my fault. I did try to make time for you; I talked to you, I asked about you, I even went so far as to try and spend some time with you. Maybe you didn't realize it too, but we aren't the same as we were back then.

Now, things have changed and I've changed too. I guess you have too. We had different friends but it didn't matter then. I was happy enough that you still cared about me, enough to say, 'What's up?' with that carefree attitude of yours. Everything just seems different now.

Holding that title in the rank of friends, it was something I thought of as extremely special. But no matter where I go, I see and hear people who have lost the meaning of it. I guess, at some point, our relationship dissolved as well. Keeping the facade, going through the motions. I really don't hold that special rank any more. With your words that were so caring and thoughtful, but did you actually mean any of it? Like a switch, one moment you were the old you, the next, gone with the wind.

I miss the old you.

I miss the old us.

Simple, uncomplicated.

-my nights are lonlier without you

2011-06-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

Gone are the days that I could call you up at any time of the day.
Gone are the days that we would stay up almost all night talking about nothing.
Gone are the days that we would play LAN/online games in school/home/coffeebean.
Gone are the days of having 75% chance of seeing you each day.
Gone are the days of having me by your side as you take me on each 'adventure'.
Gone are the days of videocalling whenever we missed each other.
Gone are the days that you would text me each morning and each night, "Hey cupcake, good morning!" "Hey sweetie, have a good rest tonight. I love you. :) "

When you're so far away from me and yet so near to me, every single day.
Just water between us that takes 15 minutes or less to cross by ferry.
This sentence is retardation at its maximum. -.-"
If I could, I'd be there everyday to watch you as you do your best.
My nights are always lonlier without you.

`ifahchan

-baking

2010-12-04T12:22:00.002+08:00

Hello world~
I have a wedding to attend
Assignments to complete
Research project to be approved and get started
and unfortunately, no baking will be going on prior to these being completed.
MY SISTER. IS COMING BACK ON THE 6TH.
'Clean up, clean up, clean up, clean up.'
Grahhh. The part I hate the most.
Shall not dwell, look forward to the horror session on 2nd January. ;)
My fat cat needs to diet and exercise.

-ifahchan

-baking, baking

2010-11-08T17:16:00.003+08:00

TADAHHHHH~This is Batch Number 3. :)

Tried baking them 'rainbow cupcakes'. Out of all 3 batches, the 3rd and last batch looked most promising. They retained the spongy texture as compared to the first batch; I'm guessing heat was too high. 2nd batch, I didnt taste, but it rose higher than first and 3rd BUT not that spongy from touch. 3rd batch didnt rise much, (it was last to bake) but as I mentioned, SPONGY. Will be bringing them to teban for taste test. :P
If its good, YAY. Settled for the weekends. If not, any free time, I'll have to try. :)

Aftermath of baking. Or what's left of it. :P

Batch Number 1.

Batch Number 2.

Batches 1, 2 and 3.

So tell me, which one looks most appealing to you? ;)

-no marriage??

2010-11-07T19:14:00.002+08:00

Aww my mother is such a spoilerrr.
She's the one who insisted I get married BEFORE going overseas to study, but if I go overseas after graduation and Dan is in NS...
HOW TO GET MARRIEDDD?
Ahahaha.
I'm disallowed to go overseas for now. xD
Except for Wheelock college.
I shall put that as my new goal.
Which reminds me, I have to dig up all my old result slips in the mail.
:/
Meh.
On a lighter note, I finished IEP on Friday to enable myself to chillax over the weekendddd.
Psst. Secret - baking rainbow cupcakes for my parents' upcoming birthdays.
Can I borrow somebody's oven?? D:
I don't have one, except an ovenette which is errr..... Workable I guess?
I might go ingredient shopping tmr after school and try my hand at a first batch.
Tips anyone? :/

-RAWR

2010-11-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

Fat. Fat cat. Fat cat sat. Fat cat sat behind the door.

Am so freaking lazy to start on assignments due.
But snce its the last sprint, I will do my best to get As this semester.
Like OMG. I've never gotten any except for FP assignment.
Which overall, I still get a B+ .
Going to spend tonight singing random songs and start work tomorrow.
Not forgetting, picking up my cousin from his OBS course in the afternoon.
Dan's down with fever, cough and slight flu?
Letting him get his rest tonight. (:
Get well soon, dear. I love you. (:
Oh, the new house is coming along nicely.
I'm going to get a walk in wardrobe! :D
Yay. Now I have space for my hordes of clothes that I keep buying and buying.
Whoever introduced me to online shopping, thanks very much.
I'm addicted now. D:
There was this wholesale clothing store which apparently had 90% bad reviews but I'm among the 10% who are satisfied with them.
The clothes are gorgeous, I agree, even if I don't fit 2 of them because its bodycon and I'm not THAAAAAT comfortable with bodycon.
BUT. The white clothes are epic translucent.
I had given them feedback regarding that and I was thanked and assured that it would be passed on to the supplier.
So, if anyone wants to get an entirely new wardrobe for next year, you can try going to http://cleocat-fashion.com
But! Do keep away from the white clothings for the time being. (:
Darker colours recommended.
Cheers.

-OMG MINDBLOWN

2010-11-02T01:08:00.001+08:00

Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.
OMG.
MINDBLOWN.
Kudos to the speech maker, Adrian Tan.
Epicly inspiring and mindblowing.
Recommended to take a read but it's your choice.
It's on my facebook links, I think.
MINDBLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWN.
:O :O :O :O

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

-yay, yay

2010-11-01T23:26:00.002+08:00

YAY.
I'm seeing Joel next week.
YAY.
YAY.
No school this Friday.
YAY.
YAY.
I'm 50 bucks richer.
YAY.
YAY.
I got my cat to exercise at night.
YAY.
YAY.
I is happy now.
CHEEZBURGER.
LOLCAT.
YAY.

-this is the story of a girl

2010-10-30T14:29:00.005+08:00

Natasha is a 5 year old girl.

Her class was vibrant and cheerful.

There was a boy she disliked very much

because he bullied her often.

In the first 3/4 year in that class, she

had friends who stood by her.

But by the last 1/4 end, she only hand

a handful.

Why? They blame her and hate her for

standing up to the bully.

The bully had turned on them too.

Now they all shared the burden of

being bullied.

But they blamed it on her.

Everybody was happy when it was

only Natasha being affected.

Natasha was affected for 3/4 of

the year.

Natasha's puppy told her to stand

up for herself.

Now everybody doesn't like her for

standing up for herself.

She doesn't understand why.

The only time she decided to save

herself from the bully, everyone turned

their backs on her.

Giving encouraging words but not

really there for her.

Natasha could only look on with

dispair as her friends became the fence

that had once protected her.

She was now on the other side where

as everyone else was happy together,

excluding her because she was the root

of the problem now.

Not the bully, but her.

In the last burst of the year, she

decides to go ahead with her plan and

refused to back down from her stand.

Occasionally recieving words of "Hi!"

and "Bye!" but no true hand of help for

a shoulder to cry on appeared.
..............................................................
You write the ending and tell me what should happen to her.
Is it fair for Natasha to be bullied?
Is it fair for everyone to turn away when she needed help the most?
Is it fair to save yourself when you could have saved a friend and save yourself?
:/
Enlighten me, please.
Because I sure don't.
If you are my friend, can you come and give me a helping hand too?
That saves both me and you?
I've had an offer that I will take up.
But can the rest of my friends do the same too?
:/

-apologies

2010-10-30T14:04:00.004+08:00

If you took it personal, I'm sorry.
If you think it's you, it might not be you.
If I still smile at you, it's not you.
If I still interact with you, it's not you.
But you will never know, will you?
Because others take offence at what is meant for you.
And you are oblivious to that fact.
I don't know if I should be thankful or hate you for it.

Side note:
Anyway, I'm glad you're out of his life.
You can't pollute his world with your disgusting ideas and exaggerated nonsense.
You know what?
I'm glad you're gone.

-patterns

2010-10-29T13:10:00.003+08:00

Patterns. You've fallen into a pattern because I never went against the 'system'.
Now when I rebel, the system feels like its falling apart and you try to put me back in my place.
Placating me with reasons and niceties.
I feel like dropping out of polytechnic altogether.
If I didn't, I wouldn't have met this wonderful guy.
I wouldn't have met wonderful friends.
I wouldn't have met YOU.
You are the biggest pimple in my life.
I wish someone could just pop you.
Eradicating you from the face of this earth.
I never thought I could want to kill someone so much.
You make me feel like slaughtering a herd.
Like what the fuck.
You are a freaking penguin who thinks she can rule the world with you cynicism.
How the fuck are you supposed to do that when you can't get so much as a herd.
Scoff and sneers behind your back.
You should've noticed.
I fucking hate you.
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.
You porcine faced cur.

-cur, you rotund porcine

2010-10-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

Ms Rajoo did a mini English lesson/cram.
Which was cool?
She got a little bit dry somewhere but the fun part was where she was actually teaching us how to insult someone in a way that isn't obvious.
Thanks, Ms Rajoo. VERY insightful. Haha.
Gave us an example of a guy who was stranded at the airport and was demanding for a flight back home and the new counter girl was rude to him (if you think about it).
To Hallow? Or not to Hallow?
Am I even allowed to? :/
To be at a girl's house until late, watching scary movies and eating pizza, with guys around as well. Hmm..
Honestly, no idea. ):
On a different note, politics will be politics.
You can't avoid them, can't work around them, have to work WITH/ON them.
What sort of logic is that?? But yes, it rings true.
In the words of Dan, if you can't beat them, join them!
Although his words are more.. sinister to say the least.
Meh. HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN.
I'M GOING TO DRESS UP WITH ROTTING SKIN ON MY FACE TMR/SATURDAY. HAHA.
ONLINE SEARCH ON SELF-MAKE UP TIPS FOR ZOMBIE.
I still hate politics.
In other words, I hate politicians. ;)

-your right, my right

2010-10-28T15:29:00.002+08:00

It's okay for you to be selfish but not me?
When you never had to go through what I did, and sure, you're being extremely nice to me now, but is it really fair?
I really don't see why you can't give a little.
I would've been just as okay if you had told me straight away that you're not comfortable with it.
It's not like I bite, right.?
Sometimes, I really don't understand you.
I seriously hate politics.
I never want to start work unless its at Agape Little Uni(JW branch).
Damnit. I miss the environment there.
When you actually felt like you belonged.
Fuck this.

-screw politics

2010-10-27T00:31:00.003+08:00

Ask yourself this:
"Cause and effect moves the world... The outcome of today is a snowball of what we all did yesterday. What did we do to make it this way? Or rather, what did we NOT do?"
`
Think I'm not tired of giving in for the past 30 months? Think I'm a bot who does what she's told? Think there's only ONE side to the story?
Ever thought of what your actions spoke to the world when you obviously never really spared a thought after all. When you only think of yourself, isn't it justly that I take the time NOW, to stand up for myself after playing the sympathy card for so long?
Wake up and smell the cow poop. You think its unfair for me to do something so drastic; its about time i actually did something for myself rather than spare a thought for you.
Never did I ever condone against your actions for so long but I deeply regret it now.
Screw this and politics.
No more Miss Nice Girl.

-people in love

2010-10-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

Seeing people in love makes me happy too.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh.
Visited Agape with KaiTing. Saw the kids.
Epic cuteness. They still remember me. !
Didn't get to the my lovely K2 children though.
Got a hug from Mabel. I'm so touched. (:
Dan had his NAPFA. I didn't manage to ask how he did, but from the lack of news, I'm guessing it did not go well..
Doesn't matter anyway.
I love you, Muhammad Danial. (:
`
-ifahchan

-ramblings of an 19 year old who isn't really 19

2010-09-02T02:03:00.002+08:00

Monthsarys' are stupid. Period.
I can't believe there was a time where a month was something to be celebrated about.
When a month, 2 months, etc don't really mean for anything until it reaches at least 12 months which then equates to a year, THEN does it mean SOMETHING.
That something, in a year, you get to know someone, in his or her various different ways, knowing alot or a little, depends on the person you have chosen as a 'bakal suami'.
When you have come so far in a YEAR, do I see the reason to celebrate for it is a whole 12 months, where you have gone through Fasting month and birthdays. In due time, you get to meet the family, maybe in that year or longer.
Parents approval mean the world to me and I am very glad that my family approves of my current 'bakal suami' and that his family approves of me. We have been together for 2 years and more. I don't bother counting the months because, like I have previously mentioned, monthsarys are stupid. I'll wait until our 3rd year comes round before we start celebrating again.
In my time in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, I have seen myself maturing and digressing equally. I have even more responsibilities now but it doesn't change the fact that I am childish. I enjoy being a child and truthfully, I never want to grow up. I was born the second, and last child and I have been quite pampered since birth. I had always taken it for granted because I always thought "Every child grows up this way." I grew up believing that.
My perception changed when I met a boy. Who fit this idealistic mould of a perfect boyfriend. But, he never did become a 'bakal suami'. He instead became my best friend who although has been MIA from me for ages, is still regarded as so. But little by little, my reliance on him to help me up in my times of need, has lessened because I met a boy, in the late half of 2008.
When feelings started developing from the first time I met him, the time we exchanged numbers, the first date, the first 'meet the family session' for both our families, right up to this very moment; I very much grew to trust him more and put my faith in him to help me stand. It is not right for me to burden my best friend, who has his equal share of problems when I selfishly have someone who is already always there for me, including on speedial.
It is not saying that I have kicked my best friend to the curb, I would love to catch up with you again soon and have a heart to heart talk again someday. But I probably wouldn't share those too personal problems as I have promised to my 'bakal suami' to trust in him. I have 2 wonderful guys in my life, one of which weighs greater in my heart than the other because I truly do have deep feelings and the other is a deep friendship that I do not wish to break.
I love you dudes. (:

PIXELLATES ARE BACK!

2010-07-20T23:00:00.005+08:00

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Support us! :D

-ifahchan

-OMG OXFORD SHOES

2010-07-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

I HAVE PROPER NUBACK LEATHER SHOES.
NOW DANIAL CAN BE HAPPY BECAUSE NUBACK MATCHES HIS DANG TIMBERLANDS.
HAHAHA. I love you. ^^
Had a wonderful lunch and shopping at Vivo with the family.
I totally love my attachment; altho I don't love ALL of the kids. :/
Some just love pushing my anger buttons and despite how much I want to scream and shout at them, I cant. Blah.
Oh wells, a few bad apples doesn't spoil the tree!
I STILL LOVE THEM KIDS. :D
I have been sick but its a cough. Nothing serious enough that makes me feel like I need to skip attachment.
I have decided to clean my room more often and clean the 'mess' that is my bed.
Nak prepare for marriage rightttttttttt.
Need to be neat, orderly and PERFECTIONIST.
I'm so dead when I get engaged. HAHA.
I HAVEN'T MET JOEL IN AGES AND I MISS HIM. :'(
I spelled DYLAN with the Alphabits cereal at Teban.
I totally love Dan's nieces - the older one is like epic lovable. xD
And I shall stop here due to laziness. Hehe.

`
-ifahchan

-OMG

2010-05-10T22:31:00.002+08:00

Ignoring numerous things about your friend that still leaves a world of hurt on me, I shall move on to better things.
NUMBER ONE.
DAC GROUP ASSIGNMENT IS FINALLY OVER. :D
NUMBER TWO.
I HAD AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY, SPENT WITH DAN, SPENT WITH FAMILY OVER THE WEEKEND. !
MY NENEK, I LOVE YOU AND YOUR AWESOME COOKING. :D
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' AND FOR YOUR PRESENTS AND HONG BAOS. :D
NUMBER THREE.
I SELF-GRATIFIED MYSELF AND GOT SIMS 3 WORLD ADVENTURESSSSSSSSSS. :D
NUMBER FOUR.
I SELF-GRATIFIED MYSELF ONCE AGAIN BY GETTING DAN HIS JOYSTICK CONTROLLER WHICH HE NOW PLAYS RANDOM AIRPLANE GAMES WITH.
o.O
I had a nice time with you and your friends at Seoul Garden, I wouldn't mind seeing them again but like you said, you need to sort out a few things before we do.
AND NOW BACK TO SIMS. :D

-year 3

2010-04-21T18:43:00.002+08:00

Year 3 is finally here.!
I cannot wait for it to be over.
I'm going to work hard, study hard and play hard! :P
Firetruck you, who think i don't give a firetruck about THAT.
I don't give a damn anymore.
No more false pretences, just honest truth next time.
I'm going to endure the next 5 weeks, THEN I'M GOING TO GO ALL OUT.
THIS TIME NEXT YEAR, I SO HOPE I DON'T SEE YOU ANYMORE.
Besides this, changes have been made and implemented.
Firstly, moved house.
Secondly, started gymming.
Thirdly, junk food intake has been seriously cut down.
Fourth, high interest in making japanese styled food.
Fith, I have mastered the art of POOPER SCOOPING.
Sixth, I have cultivated a nonplussed interest towards shopping for the moment.

AND. I'M GOING UNIVERSAL STUDIOS WITH THE FAMILY THIS WEEKEND.
LOVE YOU ALL ! See you this Saturday! :D

-ifahchan

-SOMETHING TO DO~

2010-03-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

LIKE FINALLY~
I had something to do, I got OUT of the house.
I saw Dan, I saw Toast people.
Had laughs, got to be a timer(hey, it occupied my time!)
Meh. Had a long bus journey home.
Some school girl gave me the the up-and-down stare but WHO CARES?
I'm just happy that my dad isn't pissy anymore with stuff. :D
Plus, I'm happy I got to see Dan and see Toast people too.
Altho we didn't join them for ice creams(was it?) because my dad already got dinner and I didn't want to piss him off so I rushed back.
In the end, Dan spent the time at my place eating durians my dad bought and the nangka he bought, and had briyani for dinner too.
Talked and chatted about random stuff with Dan going through my stuff . :/
And finally walked about and sat at a bus stop to chat some more with him before he sent me home.
I LOVE YOU, DANIAL. :)
AND IT'S GREAT TO BE AMONG PEOPLE MY AGE OR A YEAR YOUNGER.
HAHAHA.

-nobody to blame but myself

2010-03-01T20:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish that I could be far far away from here with a time difference of 5 to 6 hours.
When the time I'm free, you'd be working.
The time you're free, I'll be asleep.
That way, you could never scold me for something I do or don't do.
Sometimes, I really don't like you.

-i really hate this

2010-02-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

~~I really hate this.~~
When you start comparing, it just hurts.
You may or may not know, but when you said what you said, I just had to leave.
I need time to compose myself before I start talking to you again.
I said 5 to 10 minutes, but I feel like taking half an hour, or maybe an hour.
To do what?
The most simplest way of expressing anguish, pain, sadness.

-how biased can you get?

2010-02-26T15:12:00.002+08:00

How biased can you get?
No, seriously, you indulged the way oooold exco and now the upcoming NEW exco.
Like whothehell do you think you are?
Just because you're some pioneer shit starter of it?
Don't you think you're being freaking unfair?
You've never so much as treated us as anything more than a bunch of people.
And you treat them like OMG, COME OVER TO MY PLACE. :D
I LOVE YOU ALLLL.
URGH. How freaking flack is that?
Seriously, Puck you, PUCK YOU.
Yeah, take my boyfriend along yeah?
Puck you and your shitty games.
I won't waste time with you.
I bet you're GLORIOUSLY HAPPY you'll be rid of us starting March/April.
Puck you.

-VIVO SHOPPINGGGGG!

2010-02-10T23:26:00.003+08:00

VIVO SHOPPING.

RETAIL THERAPY! :D

I spent the day with that Pris the stalker Suen. :D

She had a specific list of people to buy gifts for but girls being girls, we ended up drifting to random stores and bought stuff for ourselves. (actually, it was just me. xD )
I became a nail polish tester for Pris. :/
Finallyyyyyy, found some stuff for her intended list of people, played a random game.

And Pris, your sense of practicality and functionality, is difficult to please. ):

Haha.

I bought HEEEEELS.

Heels that shall only be worn on dates and random occasions such as weddings and shizz.

I bought random strawberry handcream. SMELLS YUMMEH.

Bought my first mascara. AMAZINGGGGGGG. :O
Bought random stuff at candy empire as usual.

And in the end, I forgot to give the CHN textbook back to Pris. ):

Will be sending the updated slides to her though. (:

I JUST FINISHED DREAMWEAVING.

I am now an expert Flasher. IN YOUR FACE, FLASH CS4.

-Ifah

-public humpfest, BIG EW.

2010-01-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

There was a public humpfest going on right outside my neighbour's house.
Directly opposite mine.
Like wtf. Get a room.
There were all these people walking by, cars passing, and they act all innocent and stop.
But once they're gone, 'HEYHO. LET'S HUMP BABEH!'
URGH. WTF. It lasted half an hour.
I was bothering them, left the sliding door open and openly mocked them on the phone.
Even put Dan on loudspeaker, they left shortly after.
No, I didn't stand there and watch, I kept going back out to check if they were gone yet in that half hour.
THANK GOODNESS, when I checked at 10.20pm, they were finally gone.
HOORAY.
Public humpfest, OVERRR.
Most irritating thing is, it's my neighbour's (not his son) random dude person who lives with them.
Great. I ranted, I feel better.
Sickos.

-ifahchan

FISHBALL, JUST DISAPPEAR

2010-01-30T12:14:00.003+08:00

FISHBALL FISHBALL FISHBALL.
Why can't you just go away, disappear, I never want to see your fishball face ever again.
So sick of you and your nonsense excuses.
You're so damn lucky I haven't scolded you shitloads at all.
FISHYOU I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
I DON'T WANT TO WORK WITH YOU AGAIN DAMNIT.
FISHBALLFISHBALLFISHBALL.
FISHERHOOKER.
`THIS IS FOR YOU, FISHERHOOKER. _|_

-does the fault lie with me?

2010-01-21T15:22:00.003+08:00

Is it my fault for her actions this morning?
Honestly, I don't know what exactly it's about.
I'm guessing its about today itself.
But is it my fault? :/
Somebody enlighten me.
`
My sore throat evolved into a cough.
That's just greattttttt.
Nothing else to say, so yeah .

-ifahchan

-wtf

2010-01-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

When my sister comes home late, you all don't give a shit.
When I come home not so late, take 10.55pm, you freak out and give me a lecture.
WTF.
Stop being so bloody unfair in your treatment among sisters.

wtf.

-blank

2009-12-17T11:35:00.003+08:00

Ew. Blogger posting looks different nowww.
Ewwww.
Random updates, I finished my E learning hw, most of them.
Had an outing with the express malay class people yesterday.
In official holiday mood.
I miss my dude very much.
I want to go on Singapore Flyer again. VERY SOON, I WILL.
I'm kinda sick of Your depressedness.
Stop thinking the world revolves around you and being depressed.
Life goes on.
You had a loss, I had a loss like ages ago.
I got over it, you will too.

-Ifahchan

-enjoying my planning much

2009-11-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

It's amazing, that for once, I actually enjoyed planning for a lesson plan of mine.
Hehehehe. And I can't wait to get the approval from the field supervisor.
HELLO HELLO WEDNESDAY.
On something NOT related to implementing lesson plans, I wasted time going to school for an hour's lecture.
D:<
Decided not to go HortPark with YZ, Clarry, Rommy and JingYi because YiTing reminded me that the field supervisor wanted to see the lesson plan.
Spent my afternoon brainstorming, disturbing Night the cat, singing praises about Dan, facebook-ing and eating.
No wonder I'm putting on weight. :/
Plus, I'm apparently supposed to have a video call session with Dan but he's MIA.
Probably video calling is out of the question for tonight.
Once again, it's down to a tie to family or he lost track of time with his friend.
Oh well. ): No use fretting.
Besides E-Learning homework I'll be doing this weekend, I'm probably going to rot the weekend away again.
Mum was being a bit PMS-y today.
Can't do anything, she is my mum. Oh well.
I shall go watch Miracle Worker now.

-ifahchan

-abhor attachment

2009-11-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

I dislike going for attachment.
Enough said. Nsk !
I DON'T LIKE. >:(

Hmph !
If I had my way, I wouldn't have to go.

-ifahchan

-you can't run away from your past

2009-11-03T21:48:00.003+08:00

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be, you're asking me to feel, the things you ~~never~~ show

Now that brings back sad memories. :/

-ifahchan

-random breakup shizzz

2009-11-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO. RANDOM POST.
Concerning break up lines i took from MSN. xD

Some helpful parting lines.
“My feelings for you are too strong.” This is an ingenious way of saying goodbye to your man with a whopping ego.
“Let’s get hitched.” Men and domestication don’t often go hand-in-hand so fingers crossed, he will bow out benevolently.
“I need space.” This hints that it is temporary. Of course, you know differently.

B.S excuses and their translations

Why not take some tips from others and use the following lines to ditch your man.
“It’s not you, it’s me” in your mind means: I’m fine, but you’re a royal pain in the backside.
“We are different stages of our lives” in your mind means: You’re beneath me.
“I want to concentrate on my work right now” in your mind means: I want to concentrate on the hot office guy right now.
“My feelings scare me” in your mind means: My feelings are actually nonexistent.

-ifahchan

- Fam-ily

2009-10-03T23:17:00.002+08:00

The boyfriend met the whole family.
Enough said. :D
Mak Nyai approves. Heh. x)
~~And Mr F suspiciously macam nak tackle Ms AK.~~
~~Chey chey!~~
So anyway, he met the whole family, cousins and all.
And its a first. (:
He's the most sociable boyfriend, ever.
Good for him !
As long as he gets along fine with them all. (:
I'm tired, I shall sleep soon.
See you.

-the reason why I hate those prepubescent boys

2009-09-30T16:42:00.002+08:00

You think you're all that, you think you're what, hot stuff, good looking, smart like a genius.
Take a good, long look in the mirror.
You're obviously NOT all that listed above; you don't know half the things going on in the world, you're lost in your tiny little comfort bubble of 'GIRLS HAVE SWEET ASSES AND BOOBIES'.
Grow up! This is the PAINFULLY OBVIOUS REASON WHY YOU GET GLARES FROM PEOPLE.
There's more to girls than just ass and boobs. D:<
Just because someone LOOKS Chinese doesn't mean they are Chinese.
Just because you're so hormonally imbalanced doesn't mean you can freely comment (or sing, in this case) about someone's ass when that someone is RIGHT THERE, UNDERSTANDING EVERY STUPID LITTLE WORD YOU'RE SAYING.
GROW UP, GROW UP, GROW UP! D:<

-meet the sister

2009-09-28T02:00:00.002+08:00

I met his sister and her fiance today.
She's really pretty and really friendly too. (:
Had fun gang-teasing Dan. Heh. :D
Helped Dan pick a present for his sister, paid and got it wrapped then headed over to meet them.
I was like,"SIALAH. OMG. SHE'S GORGEOUS. D: D: D: !" in my head. HAHA.
Side note, Ugly Truth was worth the watch with Dan. (:
Had dinner at Fish and Co. with them all.
Gaah. I felt odd. I don't usually eat seafood-ish when I'm out. :/
Not my thing, yo.
Besides all that, I dragged Dan home to eat mee siam my mum cooked.
Then he went home. (:
His mum called an hour later, looking for him.
His phone died apparently. x)
We had a short chat and she was telling me some random stuff about her job and a family dinner they had.
I feel so touched by what she said.. (:
Besides that, and I don't know how true this is, but I'm so GRAAAH by the fact that she outrightly told me that she and his sister approve of me.
It's like, WOW. :O
~~Says that I'm the first girl who's been around this long?~~
~~I swear the other one was longer?~~
But awww, Makcik! I'm very touched! I like you too! And I like his sister too! (:
I still have a 'phobia' of his brother though.
Despite what Dan, his sister and his mum say, I still think he's scary.
My dad commented once,"For what you get scared? Just say right back at him! TAK PAYAH TAKUT!"
Haha.
I currently feel very loved. (:
I swear the other time I felt this happy was this morning when I sampled my successful second try at cookies and OMG! CHEWY AND SOFT ON THE INSIDE!! :D
I ate many. :D
I do hope Dan, his sister and his mum like their cookies.
Well, Dan likes the second successful batch, that's for sure.
They were gone in like, under 3 minutes. 6 MEDIUM sized cookies.
Haha.
Hey, yo?
I love you people. (:
I'm going jalan raya with BV people on Thursday.
I originally planned to go to Ms Sue's house with the classmates but knowing me, if I go, I'd be too lazy to go find the BV people and crash at home instead. HAHA.
And I decided on going with BV people because
1) I haven't seen them in AGES
2) I'm lazy to go and find them if I go Ms Sue's
3) I'm seeing them wonderful ladies on Tuesday. (:
`
I'll be darned though, I feel lazy to get stuff. I wonder if I should just bake cookies instead.
HAHA.
Well, I made the necessary amendments to the cookie recipe.
To make it chewy, set temp at 190, for BAKED, GARING, 160.
And Night is taking up my leg space. ):
I can't sleep properly tonight.
Goodnight. (:

-quoted from Shila's blogpost from a while back.

2009-09-24T05:02:00.002+08:00

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change. ditch his sorry ASS, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect !

YEAH, I AGREE WITH THIS SHIT YO!
I'm sorry. I'm feeling wide awake at 5.05am in the morning because I thought I saw something that I shall not mention here at 2++am flit past the tv in my room. /:
Said a few prayers but still unable to sleep; times like these I regret not being a better Muslim.
I've gotten a couple of lines of advice from 2 people concerning similar occasions..
But I still wish I tried harder to do some memorisation BESIDES the basics that are used for daily prayers..
And I somehow can't bring myself to. ):
I left the TV running since then and it's currently on MTV. When I hear someone getting up, I'll turn it off and I'll probably be able to sleep then. Sad case, no?
My back's starting to hurt. BAAAAH.
I dislike this, yo.
I'm going to watch 28 Days Later to pass the time until someone wakes up.
See youu!
PS - I miss Dan already. x)

-RAYAAAAAAAAAAAA

2009-09-24T04:37:00.002+08:00

I LOVE RAYAAAAAAAAAAA.
Been busy and yet not busy.
Visiting and sleeping.
Dan visited. Had dinner at The Royals Cafe. Went home.
Will be baking cookies for his sister's birthday.
Need to find those pretty plastic wrap thingys.
He's away for camp - working. 3 days.
I shall be sleeping my days away and going for toastmasters?
I don't feeeeeeel like it.
I feel like sleeeeping all day.
):
It's the holidays, dude!
I never feel like going out to the movies or anything at all!
BAAAH.

-ifah

-HOORAY, BAKING.

2009-09-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

HOORAY. HARI RAYA'S ROUND THE CORNER AND I CAN'T WAIT TO START MAKING KUEH RAYA TOMORROW WITH MY MUM AND SISTER.
HOORAY.
I haven't felt the need to vent or rant lately, so I haven't updated.
BUT HOORAY.
AND MY SISTER WANTS TO BAKE COOKIES AS WELL.
HOORAY.
I WILL BE HELPING HER, I THINK. HAHA.
HOOOOOOORAYYYYYY~
~~SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!~~

-the reason why

2009-08-30T03:30:00.002+08:00

And sometimes the reason why I prefer not to talk to you, SMN, is that you somehow always manage to infuriate me and piss me off.
Well thanks. Disney Movies helped cool me down and you just made me see red and feel like crying my eyes out again.
THANKS A LOT.

-CHANGE.

2009-08-29T18:47:00.002+08:00

Everything can change when you least expect it.
WOOTS. Very Nice, Very Good !
My sister found an old album consisting of mainly my pictures in Nur Kindergarten.
Nice. I took it.
I think that I should not waste time waiting and just jump in with Sims.
Afterall, he did say he'd do the contacting.
I love you, Dan. (:
I attempted french braiding yesterday night.
Today's attempt was better. But still messy.
I practiced on my sister too. :D
I think I'm getting the hang of it.
Hooray. (:
Wishes of thanks to Rommy and Pris. (:
Honestly speaking, when I'm in need of girl talk these two wonder women are always around.
Love you, women! (:
I have a random wish to take up a sport.
Hmm.. Gives a thought there. HMMMMMMM.

-Believe In Magic

2009-08-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

Do you believe in Magic?
Yes, I believe in the magic of Love. (:
No, I haven't given up on Dan.
I'll give him till the end of Ramadan. (:
Or aybe Hari Raya. Haha.
But if my parents ask again, HMMM.
Entah lah ehhhh. x]
Disney movies give me the lift I actually needed.
THANK YOU DISNEY CHANNEL.
Haha!
I should probably go sleep.
Since I only had 4 hours of sleep. (:
Goodnight World!

-AMIRAH'S QUOTE!

2009-08-28T15:32:00.002+08:00

Amirah Lee #rememberwhen he used to be just a click of a call away, but now you can only afford to sheepishly stare at his number?
`
`
LOL. I find this so true. :D
I LIKE.
I clicked the 'like' button on facebook. HEHE. :D

-the things i do because i love you

2009-08-28T14:12:00.002+08:00

When my family asks why I haven't gone out with you, since its the holidays.
I tell them the last bit of info that I got from you a week ago.
You lost your phone and you haven't been online for a long while.
Sure, I smile for them. But even my parents are asking now.
What's happened to you?
Only God knows, you know, your family know.
I sure don't.
The most I can do is assume(it makes and ass out of you and me) and speculate.
I've been telling myself, its exam week. Chill.
But shouldn't exams be over by now?
You said you'd be the one doing the contacting. ):
Apparently phone's working but you don't answer.
Maybe it's family issues. Most probable reason, but really.
What do I know? Nothing. Nothing at all.
It's funny how you're still in my thoughts.
Other stuff that's non related:
Played Guitar Hero with my sister until sahur time.
Played some random game(I swore not to sleep but I fell asleep anyway) after that.
Been playing it until now(was asleep from 8 to 12pm?)
I shall take a shower after this post
My phone had a seizure :P
It spaced, blanked, blinked.
After I managed to get it somewhat working, the themes were missing.
I'm stuck with an ugly blue basic. D: Igh. I like my reds and blacks. D:
I reset the wallpaper, screensaver and tones.
Initially wallpaper was His face, but after a few days, it just hurt to look.
So I changed it to the 'red light district lamp' as I call it.
Screensaver's a picture of my sister and I.
Tones are the same; MJ's Beat it for message, Misery Business for ringing tone.
I am going out with Pris on Monday to Ion Orchard
I am going to school with Joel to drop off cca stuff
I will be washing random containers for my mum today
I shall attempt to clean up(key word being attempt) my room. xD
I heard a cat from ON the roof - it could be Night. O.o
Might be stuck on the roof again because of the rain. Nsk. ):
After doing random stuff, I shall probably go do something else to keep myself busy so I don't have time to think of him and get all sad.
I might go do Pris's moustache thingy for her.
HELLO IRONING NONSENSE. I LIKE TO DESIGN YOU. :D
And when Feeqa gets back to Singapore, I shall go out with her too. (:
I like the month of fasting. It took me a longer time to get upset than usual.
That's a plus.
OH. My sister and I looked at old photo albums!
When he's finally back from where ever he's been, I'm going to get him to come over and show him.
Baaah. I like my INFANT and BABY pictures.
I don't like my primary school and secondary school pictures.
HAHA. Why? I started gaining weight and getting a mochi face after Primary 4. xD
NICE.
Danish the bear is starting to smell like no smell. D:
Oh no! Time for Danish the bear to hug Ms Sue's gift soap from body shop!
DANG. And probably put that green sweater in the wash. HAHA.
Joel says he's gotten fat. >_>
I so do not believe him. He's like gorgeously slim with nice hair and sense of style.
PFFFFT. And he say's hes fat. -.-"
I KEEP HEARING CATS FIGHTING.
It's annoying! NSK! D:<
IT'S NOT NIGHT EITHER SO I'M EVEN MORE ANNOYED.
Graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Toastmaster's camp seems so far awayyyyyyyyyyy. D:<
Is it still on ? NO IDEAAAAAAAAAA.
I never asked anyway. HAHA.
I feel like taking a walk but at the same time, I don't want to go alone.
See Joel. It's times like these when you could go with me.
Have fun at Baybeats today though. (:
I looked like my dad when I was WAYYY younger.
And now I look like my mum when she was WAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY young.
xD I look like her in her teens. :D NO JOKE. I REALLY DO.
I looked like my dad when he was in his skinny slim days when I was primary school young(pri 1-3) and before. xD
I stopped dreaming in clarity. It's all fuzzy.
I shall go dream about Edward Cullen tonight if it's possible.
I almost feel like Bella when Edward left her in book 2.
Just not as zombie-fied. (:
But just so you know.
Zarifah Bazilah Loves Muhammad Danial . <3

-i keep waiting, waiting, waiting for the world to change

2009-08-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

I keep on waiting, waiting, waiting for the world to change. ~
I wait till 3am for you, but you never show.
Wasted efforts? Probably. It's holidays, so what.
I shall attempt to keep busy for the time being.
I miss you, dude. I do. And I love you. :/
Oh well.
At least Joel's holiday-ing now.
He's been hyper and slightly loopy. HAHA.
Yay best friend. *hug*
I love you, woman. :D
GRAAAH. I am pulling out hair now. :)
Why? I have nothing better to do.
Also, I'm going shopping with Pris on Monday.
Yay. :) *hug*
I love you, woman!
I shall get your present someday. x)
Why? I am lazy to leave the house because, I'm just lazy. :P
MTV's a source for random entertainment.
Joseph provided a short laugh in the late afternoon with his random shout of touchscreen toy.
Samuel . >_> HAHA. He randomly pops up to ask for a song.
-_-" Nsk. Woman, woman.
I shall try to sleep earlier today? But probably not happening.

-ifahchan

-i don't like where this is going...

2009-08-27T22:19:00.002+08:00

It's starting to feel like the nightmare is coming true.
D:
I blame my overactive imagination for my apparent paranoia.
But really.
It's worse than the last time. :

-make me stop hoping

2009-08-27T17:55:00.002+08:00

Make me stop hoping.
Make me harbour no expectations.
Make me stop believing.
Make me stop trusting.
And maybe I won't hurt so much.

I do not know what to think anymore concerning you.
Because now apparently your phone is fine.
So I do not know what to say to that.
So I think it's better if I just kept quiet.
I don't want to start wallowing in self-pity bullshit.

I have attempted to keep my brain busy by playing random games of Bejeweled Blitz and watching Naruto.
But I can't really concentrate. I keep getting low scores and it's at a sad arc of Naruto now.
Whaaaat a bummer.
I guess it's fine that I'm on my period now, then.
I feel like diving under the covers and sleeping the week away.
Can I do that, please? ):

-banana split and squashed, *SPLAT* *SQUISH*

-NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHTMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARE.

2009-08-27T12:44:00.004+08:00

OMG NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT-MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARE. D:
I have no idea when this nightmare occured, just that it was TODAY.
I hate having something so...... GRAAH. Saddening.
I do hope it doesn't happen. D:
Simply put; the week of silence equates something ending
And after, something new began.
And tossed aside was I, no proper goodbye. D:
GOODNESS.
No thanks pls. I am sad now. ):
I shall go play games or something.
SIDE NOTE; IKEA SMELLS NICE. >:D

-no news is good news?

2009-08-22T22:39:00.003+08:00

No news is apparently good news. ):
Well, maybe its true but I can't help but worry.
i do hope his issues have been resolved.
Its been three-ish days.
I hope you are fine. :D
AND.
I DO NOT FEEL LIKE STUDYING FOR DLE.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
HECK LAH. I SHALL READ THROUGH THE CHAPTERS SOON.
My sister wants to kaypoh and read my blog.
Bahahaha. :D
Anyway, DUDE. STOP MIA-ING ALREADY OKAY?
(:
Good luck for your remaining papers and GOOD LUCK ECH-ERS FOR DLE PAPER!
:D

ITBD? BRING IT!

2009-08-20T20:27:00.001+08:00

ITBD? BRING IT, YO!
*swaggers towards examination hall in dreams*
BAHAHA.
After tomorrow, its ONE PAPER DOWN, ONE LEFT.
HELLO ITBD, GOODBYE ITBD.
HELLO DLE. GOODBYE DLE.
HELLO HOLIDAYS AND FASTING MONTH! :D

-ifahchan

-GRAAAAAAAAAAH

2009-08-15T17:42:00.002+08:00

GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I feel so lazy to study for ITBD. Well, I've covered the 10 principles and the 3Rs.
):
It's a start right? Danggg...
Panic and study mood would probably kick in Monday?
Hoping it would.
I've been stoning and lazing round at home.
Suuuuuch a wheeball.
and OOOOOOH. TERASE MAN, TENTANG BENDE2.
Baaah. And OMG. TOASTMASTERS FINALLY ARRANGED A CAMP.
Hahah. WTH. I feel like I have no life; just about camp, make me sooo happy.
Nonsense.
I shall attempt to study ITBD again after I get back home tonight.
Or else, I'll just push it to Sunday. :/
He won't be happy to hear that though. Dang you. :P
Love love you all. ~! (:

2009-08-09T12:47:00.002+08:00

Ifah viewed her Love Zodiac Profile for the zodiac sign Taurus.
If you are Taurus:
You are an extremely gentle and caring lover. You are totally loyal in your relationships. You prefer to be in a serious relationship. You are a very understanding lover. You love to be pampered by your loved one. At times, you get very possessive about your partner. Your partner loves you for the intimacy and affection you show. You are a tender lover and do not show too much aggression. You tend to be open in your relationships. You do not hide things from your partner and expect the same in return.
Your kissing style:Your kisses are very soft and memorable. You love to proceed in a slow manner.
To attract you, the opposite sex must be:cook great food for you, pamper you, be dependable and honest, etc.
You are more compatible with - Leo, Scorpio, Virgo, Capricorn
You are less compatible with - Sagittarius, Gemini, Aries

HAHA. I think I zoomed in too much on the 'cook great food for you'. Interestingly, he brought up that topic on his own yesterday.
And I should be studying for FM. ):
-ifahchan

-THANKYOUFORROYALLYSCREWINGMEOVER,GOOGLE

2009-08-08T01:57:00.002+08:00

I hadn't felt the need, or want to blog but THIS REALLY TAKES THE CAKE.
THANK YOU FOR ROYALLY SCREWING ME OVER, GOOGLE.
Take away that LAST bit of SANITIY I had reserved specially for TWILIGHT SERIES.
Take away the joy I get from READING.
THANK YOU SO MUCH, GOOGLE. D:<
I am royally pissed. THANKS, YO, GOOGLE. D:<
`
Besides being royally pissed with GOOGLE, I woke up an hour late for class.
AND forgot to pack the coversheet for FP.
I guess that was a signal to how bad the day was going to go from then.
Not counting the minor issues of body ache from the fun on Thursday, I suffered from lack of sleep(do not ask. D: ), cash issues, forgetfulness, rudeness and the unabashed guilt that hit me soon after Not forgetting Dan getting woozy after he got home.
): I do hope he feels better after a good night's rest.
He did not sound well, AT ALL. ):
Ignoring my GOOGLE crisis, I feel an urgency to resume my payback of 3 days of Fasting remaining.
Shall not go into details with that. Boring to the max.
And I so can't wait for New Moon to come out in Singapore. !
I rewatched the trailer, PLUS the Fan-made Trailer. Nice .
After much laments(OKAY, I ADMIT I LAMENT A LOT, Sankalp!), I'm wondering if sleep is good for me.
OH. We met a friend of Dan's at PH. He worked there.
Interesting.
I still can't get away from the 'I thought you were Chinese!'
I wanted to counter him by saying,'Well, Dan looks Chinka too, you know.'
But forget it. Not worth it. :/
Time for sleep, I guess.
Nights world.
`
And a side post to Joel; Dude, you've been MIA-ing from me. ): And I am not at all pleased with that. ): You're my Jacob - the dude who knows me best considering how long it seems for us to meet up. Talk soon, Mummy. *hugs*
`
Side note to CKTs, family; I heart you wonderful women. (: Despite knowing that I have ditched on more than a few occasions, I can't tell you all how sorry I am sometimes but I do get carried away. ): Remind me more often that I need the same sort of balance in my life that includes friends other than my boyfriend. As well as family. *hugs to CKTs and family*

-i'm the a**hole, not him

2009-07-18T01:23:00.003+08:00

I'm a f*ing screw up.
I wish I could take back whatever bullshit I typed but I can't.
Doesn't help the fact that I was feeling like crap when I woke up either.
But it was no excuse for me to behave that way.
I screwed up. Big time.
I hate myself tonight.

`the ahole

2009-07-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

When your Venus is in Taurus, your needs in love are largely determined by the pleasing of your senses. The first of the earth signs, Taurus is very physical. You are sensually inclined--not sensation-oriented like Aries, but rather keenly tuned in to the world of the physical five senses. (The sixth sense belongs to the Water signs!) To understand the Venusian Taurus nature, it is helpful to think of three "S" words that Taurus values: sensuality, stability, and satisfaction.
You are somewhat conventional in matters of the heart, with a strong sense of commitment and purpose. You are not romantic in a frilly or dreamy way, yet you certainly have the sense of the romantic when it comes to honoring others and surrounding partnerships in simple luxuries. You are practical, and relationships are taken seriously. This does not necessarily mean that you are incapable of having one-night-stands or the like, but a partnership means a lot to you and you don't take your responsibilities lightly. You have a strong, constant love nature, and you offer loved ones much comfort in your stability. You seek out security through partnership. You tend to hold on to partnerships, and you place basic security needs over emotional or spiritual needs. As a result, others may see you as a rock, or they can easily get frustrated that you overlook the nuances of the relationship, depending on the audience.
Your tastes are well-developed, and you prefer to surround yourself with things that feel luxurious and comfortable, yet simple. Your taste in home decor reflects your own love nature! Satisfaction is important to you, and your lover's physical presence is demanded. Unless Venus is strongly aspected to Neptune, for example, you are very much concerned with all that is physical, often completely ignoring the spiritual needs of your partner and relationship. You are persevering and you are not afraid to wait if you know you are likely to get your prize! Changes make you unsettled, and you react to any sudden changes in the course of your relationship by digging in your heels.

How You Relate to a Partner with Venus in Leo: Your partner senses your steadfastness and staying power, admiring your strength and conviction. Both of you value loyalty, and both of you are very capable of giving it to one another. Your partner can be somewhat flirtatious and playful, and you might misinterpret this behavior as disloyalty. You are inclined to be somewhat possessive, but you must understand that your partner is actually quite loyal. He or she simply enjoys attention. Leo and Taurus are both fixed signs, which means each of you tends to hold on to your relationships. This can mean that your relationship will last longer than many, although longevity does not always mean the going is easy! This can be a sexually magnetic combination, with the only potential problem in the bedroom stemming from your stubborn natures. Both of you look for security in your relationships, and your partner senses that you will give him or her just that. In partnerships in which money is shared, how you spend money will frequently be an issue. Your partner might be an impulsive spender, riding on emotional drama ("I absolutely need to buy this"). The melodrama is not limited only to romance, but with money as well! Although you appreciate the finer things in life, just like your partner does, you put more thought into purchases. You have much to offer each other, and mutual respect is likely, with the only serious potential problem a clash of wills, as both of you are strong individuals! Sensuality, commitment, and pleasure are accentuated in your relationship.

I had nothing better to do. :/ Time to print stuff for FP 2.1 now. Danggg.
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-ifahchan

MJ and great music, plus cool makcik!

2009-07-01T15:56:00.004+08:00

You know, if you stopped to think about it, MJ sang alot of Great Songs and yes, he truly was the King Of Pop.
He wasn't afraid to sing so called, "taboo" topics and that says a great deal.
He was and always had been a wonderful singer/dancer from young till the end.
As a child, my favourite was Heal the World.
My current MJ favourite is Beat It, thanks to GHWT.
And his early end sparked off a frantic rush of online searching and clicking to start compiling the great music that he did.
Now that I reflect, I can't quite say I have any favourites since, DUDE.
THEY ARE ALL WONDERFUL.
Aside from the wonderful music, I think that Danish's mum is way cool for a makcik.
She always comes and disturbs Danish when we're on the phone together OR videocalling.
She's so darn cute for a makcik. :D
AND AND AND. I compulsively speak in Malay to her regardless. xD
DANISH. YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL MUM. TAKE CARE OF HER . :D
OR I SHALL BULLY YOU. xD
And nowwwwwwwwwww. I have to study for MAYC test tomorrow. NUMBER SENSE.
D:
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-ifahchan

intermittent ramblings

2009-06-16T23:57:00.004+08:00

Don't bother reading if you cant stand small typings and block text make your head spin.
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Bullshit. That's all that comes to mind. The intermittent ramblings of an indecisive heart. When you think of something negative, it's bound to happen. Hello holidays. I'm thankful for these two weeks. I don't have to face the world except for selected days. Whatever that happened, I blame it entirely on myself and my selfish reasons. Blame me, not the world. Damn. Now how am I supposed to focus on other stuff like FM which lands me on this Thursday 9.15am at cheers. Oh well. Screw me over once more. It's never rainbows and butterflies. I used to believe it was compromise but look where that got me and how everything turned out. Sure, we look fine on the outside. But who knows the inner turmoil better then you do? A bout of good England landed me. But I have no mood for poetic prose and shit. When the world brings you down to your knees, all you want to do is curl up and cry it all out. But what happens when you can't and you're expected to put up a strong front and act normal because everyone thinks that way? I sure feel.. Empty like a goddamn puppet where you just play with the strings to make me move a certain way or those ventriloquist dummies where they just get a hand up their empty shell of a doll and people move their mouths for them. I am fully aware that I might not be making sense but my jumbled thoughts are disallowing me to arrange myself in a coherent and comprehensible manner of typing so I'm throwing away the rules of writing a proper reflection or whatever that consists of an introduction, body and conclusion. Like I said, intermittent ramblings of the mind. Let me erase the hurt and pain and hopefully, I'll go back to being that shadow of a faker that people see most of the time anyway. Or I'll just bury myself in books and the song 'Your Call' by Secondhand Serenade. Besides the fact that I've been reading a good but depressing book and that I was actually feeling emo during SCT and nobody really noticed anything. See, I went out after he told me the news to go and collect my thoughts. I felt like I was about to cry anyway. But I didn't. I kept it bottled and came back looking fine and went back to being my bookworm self in primary and secondary school. It's as if I've gone back in time and instead of a school uniform, I'm in jeans and whatever, reading to mask my true feelings. I feel like shit anyway.
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-ifahchan

-shameless

2009-06-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

I was in a pretty good mood this morning until I saw something VERY. DISTURBING.
SPOILED my good mood. Tsk.
I had walked from my house to the mrt station and went up the escalator to the trains.
AND MYGOODNESS! Right as I get off, I turn to the left and see this WOMAN,
adjusting her bra like, sticking her hands up under her shirt from behind.
She's like flashing people as she does this. Don't know if she realised but DUUUDE.
SHAMELESS MUCH? URGH. D:<
Piss me off early noon. TSK.
Spent the MRT trip reading my Mammoth Book of Vampire Romance.
HEES. :D I fall in love with vampires more and more like this.
OH EDWARD CULLEN. WHERE ARE YOU? HEHE. x)
Interesting incident at cheers involving Rommy and her EC. Hehe.
MAYC was interesting as usual, I guess.
Juju and Joyce were saying how Sha's dude and my dude looked alike.
I never really noticed. :/
Their similarities would be the fact that they are both mixed ?
And Vanessa asked where I found my dude. Haha.
DLE was. errr. fun. PK bumped and sort of tripped over the table.
And he was being PK-y as usual.
Took a couple of pictures with the lovelies. (:
Bused home with Seetha and Shila.
Read the book on the MRT trip home.
AND I FINALLY COMPLETED ITBD! WOOHOO!
HOORAY FOR . idk.
And I'm looking forward to tomorrow. (:
I'm off to print and celebrate with a quick round of Sims 3!
Cheers!
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-ifah
`ps. JOEL GAN. STOP MIA-ING AND COME FIND ME ONE OF THESE DAYS. D:<

-psycho girlfriend

2009-06-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

I was channel surfing, chanced upon HSM 2 .
I realised, that Vanessa Ann Hudgens er.. Forgot her movie name.
She's actually those possessive girlfriend type that doesn't let her dude work towards the future.
Zac Efron's all "I'm working towards that scholarship thing."
VAH's all,"But you're acting like you're getting it now! Missing movies, blowing off dates, that's not YOU.!"
-_-" BITCHYYYYYY. Like hello! Let your dude get a good education and marry you when he's got a good job. TSK.
Suchhha BLEEEP .
Oh well. According to Sankalp, my blog's full of laments.
And yeah, I guess that's true.
OH. SPEAKING OF WHICH.
Last week, I saw this dude who looked like Ikuta Toma. ! :D
THE NOSE, THE HAIR, THE BUILD. SKINNY TALL PERSON. WOOTS.
NAKATSU HAIR. DANGGG. I GOT HIGH. HEHE.
And Dan smsed me suddenly, ~~potong steam~~. ):
HAHA. No, just kidding. x)
Back to ITBD assignment. Took a short break just to put this up. HEH.
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-ifah
ps.,
~~Did you ever blame the world but never blame you?~~

SIMS 3

2009-06-04T09:56:00.002+08:00

SIMS 3, I'M SO GOING TO GET IT. After Danish ends his common test.
I'll drag him to Popular or something to get it. :D
Besides SIMS 3 pushing me on, HOLIDAYS IN A WEEK.
3 assignments will be done by then.
MAYC, FP and ITBD. Of which MAYC I haven't started. AT ALL.
ITBD, vaguely I know what to do. But lazyness consumes me.
FP, just left one more writeup. HEHE. :D :D :D :D :D
I feel like wearing a dress today but there's no point. -_-
Dress up for whatttt? BILLY JOEL. >:D
I adore my fat, manje cat, Night. HEHE.
RECAPPPPPPP. 2 anecs by tomorrow, send evaluation to mentor by Sunday.
MAYC on Tuesday, ITBD on Monday, FP on Friday.
Okay. I be bored now . :/
~~I don't wanna go to school.~~
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-ifah

-shagged

2009-06-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SHAGGED.
Knocked out the moment I got home.
Dozed for like an hour before waking up and realising I still needed to print DLE.
Task List for This Week:
AW MEL - print out notes and write out summary by TUESDAY 12AM
` - get the webbie to reference and pass to Rommy by TUESDAY
FP A& C - find song/rhyme to start/end lesson, collect & paste leaves/beans on paper
ITBD - Make notes/highlight Principles 3 & 4 by FRIDAY MORNING
` - type out & print 2 anecdotals observation of one child during routine care
misc - be a gundu and help out around the house, MAYC assignment by SUNDAY
`
Currently, that's what I have to do, I might've forgotten some things but.
TSK.
Yeah. I don't really have the mood to blog. Feel like sleeping away.
Bah.
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-ifah

-KNACKERED OUT.

2009-05-18T23:12:00.002+08:00

I FEEL SO SHAGGED/ KNACKERED OUT/ TIRED TO THE MAX.
So annoying how THEY auto register you and say,'OH. CONFIRMED YOU'LL BE PRE-K TEACHER SO YOU MUST COME ON SATURDAY TALKS.'
Like DUDE. I want to be a PSYCHOLOGIST. TSK.
Kurengs. Annoying. AST was . Different.
FM was wasted by eating cookies and getting high on godknowswhat.
ITBD, was falling asleep at the table. D:
DANG. Lighter note, I printed my stuff out for lesson plan on Wednesday.
Now I have to cut out, get plain paper and glue. :D YAYYYY.
Had dinner with Danish at LJS in Bedok. I swear he's a monster when it comes to food.
He smells, REALLLLLY GOOD. HAHA.
Heck, well, I know I like the way he smells. >:]
CK dunnowhatthing. Haiz. :/
He keeps forgetting to spray it on MY jacket.
Oh wells. I LOVE MY DEARS. :D
Back to stressed and shaggy-ied school hours for heavenknowswhatreasons. :/
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-ifahchan

-OMG, ANECS!

2009-05-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

I JUST FINISHED ONE DANG LESSON PLAN.
I feel damn accomplished. (:
Now I have to wait what she says tonight, start on my 2 anecdotals soon.
And when she gives the OK-go, start on my other 2 Art and Craft Lesson plans.
Then start thinking about Music and Movement.
I was planning Teapot for that but see how . :/
Joel and Joseph came to NP yesterday. DANG YOU JOEL.
Why do you look better EVERY TIME I SEE YOU. Tsk. -_-
HAHA. Dengki pe. xD
Moving onnnnn. They met up with Sam as well.
Joel said bye to the darlings after they walked away because he was pretending not to see me.
DODOL LAAA. Haha. Such a duude.
I FEEL TIRED FROM RUNNING UP AND DOWN THE STAIRS. D:<
Stop calling me downstairs can ? D:
Haiyo. Errrm.
Met up with Dan at the library.
The guys all clicked. -__-
I swear I felt a little outcasted. Tsk. Dudes and their talks.
Oh wells. Good that they clicked though.
Dan is a must bring next time . (:
Toodles!

Birthday and Danish Pastry

2009-05-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

It's late but oh well.
I enjoyed my pre-birthday celebration with the darlings. ♥ :D :D
Thanks for the card and present. :D
Thanks to cousins for the gorgeous gifts and birthday wishes. (:
Thanks to the classmates for the cute gifts and birthday wishes. :D
Thanks to Danish Pastry for the bear and birthday wish. ♥ (:
On to more recent things.
Uhhh. I don't quite like the centre I'm attached to this time but oh wells.
We can't choose. :/
I'm also apparently the secretary in Toastmasters too. -.-"
THANKS BALA, FOR FORGETTING TO TELL THE OTHERS TO TELL ME AND FORGET THAT I WAS CHOSEN FOR IT . Tskkk.
Danish Pastry got a fever tonight. After forcing him to eat a little, we went home.
):
I do hope he gets better.
He should go home, shower, do SOME work, then sleep early.
But degil lah . Frustrating to no end. Keep saying no.
But that's how I usually am anyway.
So, HELLO WORKLOAD. I dispise you. D:<
And Danish, get well soon. ♥ *
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-ifahchan

-of parents and baking

2009-04-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

Apparently, I'm random but cute. >.>
Thanks ah. Thanks. HAHA.
I love my mum. (:
She's so understanding about stuff.
She understands what I'm going through, so why can't you? :X
I don't know what to say to you already.
I thought you pretty much understood it all, but I guess not?
Oh wells.
PHILIP KOH. haha. The only Male lecturer we have so far.
He's.. funny, his tutorial isn't boring. (:
OH OH OH.
Yeah. I thought he was gay too at first, when I saw his ear piercing.
BUT HE HAS A CHILD. So TETTTT. Fail. Haha.
Mira's supposed to teach me how to bake. D:
I wanna know how to bake too...
Then I can like bake something for peoples' birthdays. ):
I feel like, when I buy them stuff, it's very superficial.
Baked stuffs seem more, homely and sincere. ):
Oh wells. I envy Rommy and Nabelle for their baking skills.
Teaching me how to bake too? ):

-ifahchan

-definitely, maybe

2009-04-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

DEFINITELY, MAYBE IS ♥ !
(:
To those who know, BAHAHA.
SHHH. xD
I SHARE SWEETS . HAHA.
I like sweet things and MOCHI OMG MOCHI.!
I manged to find the nice one the other time. YAYYYYY.
:D
Left one box . TSKKK.
I am happy and angry for different reasons.
Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I feel so shagged after school nowwww. >:
Nevermindddd.
I LOVE THE DEARS OF BO2 AND OF COURSE PRIS AND JOEL . xD

-ifahchan

-ipod moments

2009-04-21T20:33:00.001+08:00

HAHA. DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE.
I like that word. HAHA.
I want more ipod sharing moments and lunching. xD
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
MEREPEK. Horkay. Forget that.
HELLO YEAR 2. :D

-ifahchan

-of gatherings and sleepy time

2009-04-18T00:27:00.002+08:00

AMUNDSEN, YOU WERE MISSED.
No, really.
And everyone looks great!
More pretty, more handsome . :D
But then again, for obs, we were all clad in shorts and tshirts.
Apparently next gathering is on 3rd May.
My birthday weyh! Bahaha.
HAHA. THE CAT JUST CHEWED ON THE PLUSHIE PRIS GAVE ME FOR VDAY.
Damn cat. It's going to be smelly nowww. NOOOOO.
I shall say this again, I WANT A CHINESE BOYFRIENDDD!
HAHA.
Come, come. Fill in the form, please! xD
RANDOM.
Side note, school is starting next week.
Damn. I want to sleep late more often. HAHA.
OH OH OH. TERLARI.
The gathering, went to Mind Cafe.
Not bad, played Jenga and some random game.
Kok Wee and Vincci had to do forfeits. :D
And really duuuuuude. I'm amazed that 4 of us are in NP .
-____- NEVER SEE YOU ALL .TSKKK.
As usual, I fell into 'silent mode' after a while.
HAHA. Terrible luh. I had other stuff to say, but I forgot. Meh.
OH. JOEL GAN *INSERT YOUR CHINESE NAME HERE*!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE MISSED . TSK.
I hope he doesn't forget Tuesday.
I miss my best friend. TSKKK. Kurengs.
HORKAY. I'm off to sleep nowwww.~~~
*I don't think I look that different from OBS do I ? *

-ifahchan

-oh sadded

2009-03-17T04:17:00.002+08:00

LOL. i think hes fcking taken.
HAHA. HECK.
SO MUCH FOR SUCH THINGS.
on a lighter note,
I SAYANGGGGGGGGGGG my guitar hero set!
:D
it ROCKED my socks off! :D
A big THANK YOU to my parents who got it for me! :D
and a THANK YOU to Bjorn for the song overload in my com.
anyway,
who needs guys when you have GHWT ? HAHA.
Andddddd.
I'm so dating Joel on Thursday.
Who needs guys when you have a male best friend?
HAHAHA.
SAYANG YOU JOEL GAN ! :D
SAYANG YOU FEEQA DEAR! :D
Cheers to the business!
www.pixellates.blogspot.com
check it out when you have the time, yea?
signing off for some sleep.
`-ifahchan

-airport speculations

2009-02-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, my family had dinner outside.
Went to Changi Airport,T3, Secret Recipe.
Next time I want to go shopping, just shop there at T3.
Anyway, after a wonderful dinner and dessert, went to Candy Empire.
Spent so long in there looking and browsing stuff.
Then as my parents and I were walking up a floor to the carpark,
I asked,"What does SIASU stand for? or is it Siasu?"
Dad goes on to explain what it is etc.
Somehow led to how Singapore Airlines got its name and abbreviation.
SIA. Used to be Singapore International Airlines.
Apparently Malaysian Airways wasn't too happy, asked SIA to change the name.
Then my mum said,"EH. Skali they wanted us to change it to Singapore Airlines!"
-insert blank face here-
She then went on to say,"You know, SIAL ? SIngapore AirLines? Hahahahahahaha!"
And we all had a good laugh.
And end post.
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-ifahchan

-of rambunctious nephews

2009-02-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

I ABSOLUTELY ADORE MY NEPHEWS.
SUCH RAMBUNCTIOUS CHILDREN.
I think that Evolusi KL Drift is a bit.. ERRRR.
Not much to update actually.
Erm... Going out on Thursday with CYJ celebrate her birthday.
Saturday going out with Pris celebrate Valentines day.
Feb means alot of money go out the window. HAHA.
Many birthdays and occasions.
OH WELL.
Nothing left to update.
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-ifahchan

-yeah, i so work at DP

2009-02-01T19:54:00.003+08:00

Had a great day today, I think.
I had this wonderful dream where I'm celebrating my birthday.
Family; parents, sister, cousins, aunts/uncles around.
And the unknown boyfriend.
However I try, I CANNOT remember the face.
Oh wells.
Can't even remember the details anymore.
If I do remember, maybe it'd be in a Deja Vu moment.
Moving on.
After going shop and save and random chores around the house.
Went to Parkway Parade to get shorts .
As usual, when going with my mum, tend to go overboard.
Went to other shops.
Namely, Dorothy Perkins.
The staff there wears all black and I happened to wear all black.
Then some woman came up to me saying,"Can you get this for me in size 8?"
I told her,"Sorry. I don't work here."
She looked very paiseh. -.-
But come on. I was wearing slippers.
Oh well.
At least now I can safely say, I Look Like I Work At Dorothy Perkins.
:)

-ifahchan

-of CNY eve and sleepovers

2009-01-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

Slept over at cousin's house yesterday.
Supposedly went to sleep at 2 plus am.
But Sya and I couldn't sleep and we ended up talking until 4am.
LOL. No surprise why we woke up late. :D
Had that tossing thing. I don't know what it's called so yeah.
I always feel left out at those things.
Mainly because I'm the youngest and everyone else can joke with the adults.
Different wavelengths. Psh.
And yeah. That's the summary of yesterday and today.
That's it. :3

-ifahchan

-update

2009-01-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

Rommy's been asking me to update.
So I shall.
I stopped by Taka yesterday to get styrofoam ball.
WAHHH. I felt so jakun there.
Art Friend is a nice shop. CYJ helped me thank JW for the information.
And Yeah. Okay. Thats It. :D
Oh. Obsession with Honeydew . Chey Chey.
End of Story. Rommy! NO STORY. AT ALL. Haha.
Okay. I need to.. do stuff. Haha.

-Toodles!

-stay my baby

2009-01-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

I got a hair cut. :3

cut fringe shorter and trimmed.

Have been happy .

STB results weren't disappointing either.

Chionged most assignments. :D
And I haven't returned CYJ's book.

-.-

Going out tomorrow.

And see this.

Give me your comments on what it looks like.

Haha.

EDWARD CULLEN

2008-12-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

I will be watching Twilight again tomorrow!
Eh.. Technically today. Nevermind!
Haha.
But I will feel very third wheel.
BECAUSE OF SOMEONE.
Ahh. Who cares. Make that girl happy.
I smell of barbecued something.
Smoke. WHATTTT THE. HECK.
I think cyj's brother, K.B. has a very MAN body.
He's only 14 and he looks like he has the body of an 18 year old.
~~If he wasn't related to her and if he really was 18, I'd date him.~~
BUT LOL. NEVERMIND. Random ramblings.
I want to try Dango. WHERE TO FIND?
I think, Edward Cullen, the role played by Robert Pattinson would make the Perfect Boyfriend EVER.
Okay. I shall stop here and sleep.
Or I can't wake up tomorrow.

-ifahchan

-saddedd

2008-12-05T22:32:00.003+08:00

~~Banana boy don't like meee.~~
Okay .Sadded. Joellll.
Come eat mochi with me.
Or I buy Ben and Jerry's , we share the big tub.
I need ice cream and a shoulder to cry on. HAHA.
nonsense only eh?
Nvm. I still want my ice cream.
I see no reason to go jogging unless CYJ want to cycle alongside me.
HAHA. >.< Okay. Random. But yeah. HOW'S YOUR CHRISTMAS PRESENT JOEL? :D

-i really hate this

2008-12-03T20:55:00.002+08:00

I can't be F-ed.
I'm sick of arguing.
I'm sick of you indirectly blaming me.
Even if you say you're not.
I read between the lines.
Even if you don't read them yourself.
I don't see why sh- happens.
I really don't.
I love you, I really do.
I just don't see why sh- happens.
~~*bottle up my anger and throw it out to sea. if only it was that easy*~~

-shopping

2008-11-29T22:55:00.003+08:00

Went shopping today. And I didn't know I went up a size until today.
>.> Shocking. I thought I was staying small. Haha.
Nevermind.
Bought sunglasses, camwhored with my dad's one too. (:

-toodles!

2008-11-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

"loving someone who can never love you back"
Directly quoted from some random woman in CR.
Yeah, its saddd. The person's right there but like off limits.
Invisible barrier. LOL. Talking about drama.
Hahahaha.
I had a nice dream. I want more nice dreams.
Maybe I should sleep upside down more often . LOL.
Dreams I get during naps obviously wont come true anyway.
HAHAHAHA. If only lah eh?
DONT ASK . SYED MUHAMMAD NOH. DONT ASK ME WHAT DREAM.
I shall not answer you .
You know why? I forgot already. I just know it was a nice one.
NICE ONE ! Wahahahaha.
Okay. Random crapping. :D

-the sad truth ):

2008-11-24T17:47:00.007+08:00

Romaine ah! Stop writing on my arm! Hahahaha.
It was all pink from her PINK PEN. >.<
She wrote his name, her own name, Banana and drew leaves.
I was all hyper until I saw THAT.
I shall not mention; too lazy and too.. yeah.
Small matter and I know what jealously feels like anyway so it's a small matter.
Really.
I shall not make fun of the shy teddy getting jealous.
Yes, I know it hurts. But I just never got jealous in a long while until recently.
So yeah. I get it, but I'll forget it soon.
Knowing myself, I will.

And I don't know why, but I do a lot of drawing/sketching when I'm over emotional.

Here's today's sketch of a sad girl, crying. I know it's not very good but who cares..

You tell me. The first picture isn't as clear as the second..

And HERE COMES THE RUSH OF UNFINISHED ASSIGNMENTS.
Hahahahahahaha.
Okay. I'm trying to distract myself. Great.
I shall not be depressed on the 26th.
I WILL NOT BE DEPRESSED on the 26th.
BELIEVE IT! :D
But for now, yes, I am. Oh wells.

a picture speaks a thousand words

2008-11-23T21:08:00.005+08:00

It was in purely random order. Really. Selected few pictures I decided to put up. :)

I shall insert my dad's wrapped present when I'm done with it.

All in all, a day with Joel plus wonderful people = bliss. HAHA.

I miss those Best Friend days. Must go out more often la Joel.

Stop raping Denise your guitar every night. Hahahahaha!

Okay. Continue decorating dad's wrapping paper. HAHA. :D

lazyness.

2008-11-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

I'm lazy to update my blog. :D
So another day or when Romaine says,"EH. WHY NEVER UPDATE YOUR BLOG?'
hahahaha. :D
I will say I got my dad's present - just have to collect it before the 26th.
Okay. My eyes are hurting from lack of moisture. >.<
See yous.

-saiyuki craze

2008-11-18T16:34:00.002+08:00

I was always so crazy over Gensoumaden Saiyuki when I was younger.
Therefore, my email has saiyuki in it. HAHA. Nice. Nice.
Okay, I was browsing crunchyroll as usual, THEN I SAW.....
GENSOUMADEN SAIYUKI!!! They called it 'Saiyuki' but I couldn't watch...
NOT AVAIABLE IN YOUR REGION. WL. So pissed.
But nevermind. I went on a FIND SONG rampage.
Tried to find all the GS songs I can remember.
So far I have Tightrope, Still Time + Still Time(piano version), For Real, Open Up Your Mind.
Yeah. That's it. I still need to find Alone. (:
The Saiyuki Craze is back! HEEHEEHEEHEE. :D
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Haha. Minus-ing that, I was chatting with Rommy the Sammy(curtesy of Dino's nickname for her) about NHW and her fantasy of U. Haha.
Rommy, YOUR DREAM VERY SWEET LAAA.
And it's also a bit *insert-emoticon-raising-eyebrows-up-and-down-quickly* HAHAHA.
She likes to tease me about NHW with that same emoticon. -.-"
Hahaha. What lah Romaine. :D
But actually, I also don't know why I can fall for a person like him.
Eventho he does fit my ideal guy. Hahahahaha.
But But But. No okay. Just as friend. If I was single then it'd be a different story, BUT I'M NOT.
Hahahaha. Okay, BullShit-ting already. Stop over thinking it like Joel.
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On a lighter~ note, SMN coming back tomorrow! I think.
Haha. He went M'sia with his class. Yay.
I shall not go hug-less from him from tomorrow. Hahaha.
I miss going out with him. I love him so much.
I HAVE SORTED OUT MY THOUGHTS! Yay! :D :D
He's the kind of guy who'll try everything to make me smile when I'm down. (:
Plus, it was because of his understanding and support, was I able to PROPERLY move on with my life and take my ex-boyfriend as a stepping stone to growing up. (:
SMN, Daisuki! (: Te Quiero! (: Je' taime! (: Ti Amo! (: I Love You! (:

-sushi and old faces

2008-11-16T22:07:00.003+08:00

My mum's birthday today.
Happy birthday to Mum,
Happy birthday to Mum.
Happy birthday dear mother,
Happy birthday to Mum!
My dad woke me up at 10 plus am for breakfast.
He couldn't find any yellow roses for my mum; her favourite flower. ):
I gave my mother her present; pearl bracelet at 12.30am ! :D
So today we had dinner at Sakura international buffet at DownTown East.
I saw my primary school classmate, Shamin there.
I thought he didn't recognise me so I just looked away. HAHA.
Turns out he did, and so did his mum.
When I got home, I asked him if he went to Sakura, just to be sure.
Then we started chatting for a bit.
He says I haven't changed. -.-" WHYYYY. Haha.
I think my face stays the same, but hair is of course different.
He also looks quite the same. Hair is fairly the same too. :D
I saw him eating quite alot. D:
I couldn't eat so much seh. I got full quite quickly. Haha.
Apparently, he also tried to tegur me.
He said he was about to smile and wave when I looked away.
Hahahaha. My reply,'Sorry lah. Girls more shy okay? HAHA.'
Anyway I didn't know. >.<>
He says next time SURELY tegur. Haha.
Fine next time.
See him when I see him then. (:
AND NHW! Stop nonsensing and scarring me for life with horrible mental images!
Hahahahahahaha. I like NHW's dog, Teddy. It LOOKS LIKE A TOY. :D
AGAIN. Happy Birthday Mother Dear! (:

NINO LOOKALIKE!

2008-11-15T11:37:00.003+08:00

The Toastmasters meeting wasn't as boring as i expected it to be.
It was actually quite fun.
But tiring to wait like 5 hours in school.
SMN came to keep me company after his friday prayers.
So sweet lah he. (: Then we kacau-ed HW who was having a fever as he did his ppt slides.
SMN got bored and decided to sms people. He sms Amalina you know.
-.-" Nothing better to do . Then he called Khalid.
Then we watched ep 1 of cartoon Kat-Tun.
Oh. And HW gave us some random links of videos that made us laugh.
Then after having a quick bite, went to meet Pris and SMN went home.
Met up with Karen all who were having dinner.
Then went for the meeting.
There was a guy, Shi Jie, i shall call him S.J. HE LOOKS LIKE NINO YOU KNOW!
Hahahaha. I was ecstatic when I got grouped with him and Clarice for some random game.
Dodgeball in the dark. We couldn't scream. Hahaha.
I am Nino crazy thanks to S.J. Haha. (:
Then because my group won, we had to do the table topics.
And of all things, I got this question, "would you rather wear underwear or go without?"
WTH la. Hahaha. But just had an impromptu mini speech about it.
Omg. Shirin put a horrible mental image in my headd. I am scarred for life. D:
Hahaha. I went after S.J. He got "would you rather date an old woman or a young woman?"
Then after the meeting ended, bus-ed it home with Pris.
Surprisingly, the bus journey wasn't that bad.
Kacau-ed Pris all the way home. Hahaha. :D
After I got home, did all the necessary stuff and then on laptop.
THEN I SEE THAT HW WHO HAD/HAS A FEVER ONLINE.
He never thinks to go and sleep.
He then told me I was right, he almost fainted while out for running.
GONG LA HE. Make people worry. I thought that he FAINTED not almost fainted.
He took pride in telling me the story. -.-"
Nevermind. Just layan. But his story took the sleepiness and tiredness away from me.
Thanks ah HW.
SMN called me to say goodnight and I told him to say 'Hi' to Mdm Shikin today.
Don't know if he remembered. Nevermind. (:
Then after much wasting of time online,(I was also chatting with Romaine telling her about STM meeting), went off at around 1.30 plus plus am.
HW still maple-ing. Lazy to wait for him finish anyway so I bid him goodnight when he went to maple.
Then came morning, which is now. Haha.
I had breakfast of lontong, I don't really like it much but heck. Just eat.
Then watched some tv and NOW blogged. Haha.
Okay.
Is this updated enough for you Romaine ? Hahahahaha.
See you! (:

tired feet and annoying ah bengs

2008-11-12T22:44:00.003+08:00

Went to Orchard for lunch and book buying with the lovely people.
Then went off to Vivo to meet Feeqa, Khairi and Bik Jan.
Watched 'The Coffin' BUT.
This large group of ah bengs who thinks its soooo cool to laugh at all the scary parts and touching parts, and the random I-don't-think-its-pg-rated parts, annoyed the heck out of me.
Seriously lah. Don't spoil the movie for the others.
If they weren't there, it would've been better.
After movie, shopped a bit more for random stuff.
Then Bik Baidh came along and blanje-d us at Olive and Figs for dinner.
I had Figo Black Pepper Steak. Not bad.
Then shopped for clothes at TopShop sale riiiiight at the back of the store.
Then browsed at Forever 21, then my dad picked us up and sent us home.
And now I'm tired. Too tired to elaborate. Maybe tomorrow.
Good nights.
(and i still haven't sorted out my thoughts. -.-")

-routinely mundane

2008-11-11T20:21:00.003+08:00

You know, sometimes I do wish I was single.
And so does Syed Muhammad Noh. We were talking about it the other day.
The initial sparks are gone and we've fallen into this......
ROUTINE, and mundanity. Same old cycle every time.
And I think poly guys have corrupted my thinking.
Cause I see cute guys on the MRT everyday.
I go,'OMG . CUTE !' on the inside and Syed Muhammad Noh's so far away.
):
We're already 2 years plus plus. And I find myself thinking,
'I'm better off being single. I don't spend time with him anymore.'
But do I really want to go jeopardize what we have?
:x
At times like this, I wish I could stop thinking about the little things and focus on assignments.
But I can't force this repeated thought coming forward fortnightly.
Makes me depressed. ):
I don't know already. I know it's a smallll problem but there's no straightforward answer.
I mean, take the o level period for example.
We didn't contact each other until the last few papers.
And when he started studying, he didn't have time for me either.
But I still had laughs and smiles thanks to the babes of 1b02.
So it's times like that, all the 'what if's' start coming forward.
What if I never met him?
What if we had remained friends?
What if I never fell for him?
What if we never fell in love?
What if we never got together?
What if i didn't meet/get together with THAT GUY in the first place, he started this chain....
Ish. Best friend of friend. So complicated.
I wish I had the answer right in front of me.
I want to say I'm not bored with what we have,
But I just can't. D:
That's what's so depressing. ):
I feel torn, in this case, split.
In other words , Banana Split.
):

-of sun, sand and laughter

2008-11-08T10:36:00.017+08:00

From Dino's camera: At some random shelter.
I don't know what they were trying to do. Haha
Nice smiles. (:
This Dino ah. Keep spying on guys! Hahaha. I feel like this picture was taken at Sentosa.
Hoho. Our heads form a star.
I was telling Dino, my shadow looked like a monkey's jumping/swinging. Haha.
Still looking at guys ah Dino! Hahaha.

One of the few shots before going home.
Annnnd. DINO! haha. :D

From Nadia's camera:

Random shelter.

Haha. Look at Romaine's and Nadia's faces. >.<

This picture so cute. :D Haha. Look at Dino squeezing onto that green thingy and Nabelle pedaling her forward. :D

I don't know what Romaine was doing to my cardigan. >.<

I can just imagine Nabelle as the queen and we all bow down to her. Hoho!

OKAY. now I need to go vacuum. I'M GOING HEI SHUSHI LATER! :D

Yay! :D

-the highs of today. :3

2008-11-07T01:37:00.002+08:00

WOAHHH. Today , IGOTVERYHIGH.
Lol. I spoke that fast intro-ing the group for GISP today.
But forgetting that. I saw that guitarist guy again today.
He took 184. Haha. And ALI BABA SAID HI TO ME! OMG!
Hahaha. My face turned red lah sehhh . >.<
and Romaine can disturb me some more. haha. What seh.
Lol. So I was quite high after that. Hoho. ^^.
I met Em-Dee Noh after school today. He has a fever. Aww. D:
But he met up with me anyway cause he missed me.
I feel so bad. D: Ate OCK and lepaked with him at the playground.
Watched OEPS boys on the swing and running.
Joel called me pedophilic cause I was watching them.
Like wth . Just watch, it's not like i'm getting excited or whatever watching them righttt.
Wahlauu. Hahaha. But I know he was kidding la..
He is mummy after all.
After lepaking, go home and stone. Read book. LOL.
Then had dinner. I had mee hong kong! :D
Then I chatted with Em-Dee Noh, Joel and Hong Wei after dinner.
Then along came Romaine, Nabelle and Nadia later in the night. Haha.
Thenn at the same time, Hong Wei and I were talking about Chuckie.
Errr. Don't know how the convo led to Chuckie but yeah. It did.
He was asking,'what if chuckie fell into the hands of your children at the centre?'
I was like, omg. !RUN AWAY. make the children scream and cry!
He replied, no need la. just call me. then like superhero i come save the day.
So I said,'LOL. like I can even call you. I don't have your number. Must bring laptop then go look for you online.'
To which he took it for a hint that I was asking for his number, so he gave.
I was like blishing !! OMG. Haha. Told Romaine but she had to go.
So awww. D: I shall tell her to read my blog later. Haha.
Anyway, that really made me so high. Until cannot sleep.
See? it's one am plus already. If I manage to sleep, I'll wake up late.
Hahaha. Okay Okay. I love Syed Muhammad Noh . :3
I won't give you up for anything alright? Don't be jealous of Hong Wei.
Who's my boyfriend? SMN, not HW. So SMN, don't be jealous okay? (:

-the reason behind the number 46

2008-11-04T21:27:00.002+08:00

THE REASON BEHIND THE NUMBER 46.
lol. Its double of the number 23 ! CURSEEEEE. Hahahaha.
I shall tell Pris I have the 23 curse tmr if I see her. Hahaha.
Romaine was asking why i keep saying 46. LOL.
Shu also say okayy? The IT helpdesk block.
Its related to someone I have a crush on la okay Romaine?
Haha. That's why I said it had nothing to do with us. >.<
She might burst out laughing or bombarding me with 'whos, whats, whens' .
Hahahaha.
On a lighter note, I went for attachment. Had fun.
Met up with class people at cheers. Crapped outside again. Hehe.
I love the class laaaa. (:
Rockin' bunch of women. ^^.
OH NO. Isteri Untuk Suamiku is starting. Hahahaha.
Going back to the pattern of watching Malay dramas for once.
OH YEAH. If that guy knows I have a crush on him, he might get pig-headed about it.
That's why can't let him knoww. Hahahaha.
Aper saje ehhh . >.<
EH NABILAH. How was your DOENUT? :D
hahaha.
AND SIALLAH. That guy can like say he's in love with another woman in front of his wife.
BODOH BETOL. Ish. I swear. Poor woman who can't have children...
Resort to surrogate mother then the husband fall's in love with the surrogate mother.
His love for me is like the raindrops outside. It can stop anytime.
WAH. Cheesy lines from the drama. Haha.
Okay. Go watch drama. ^^.
Happy Happy. (:

-of boyfriends and parents

2008-11-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

Pangseh king. So annoyed.
I just hope I didn't fail madrasah exam.
Or the quiz for LAECY. Aiyah. Heck care.
I'm annoyed. Printer's almost out of ink and there's stuff to print.
And OMG. I'm just feeling .. like I want to scream.
The issue about poly students paying more for bus fare/mrt fare.
BULLSHIT YOU KNOW. Go away if you want to be unfair.
It's making my wallet go empty since I have to TRAVEL SO FAR AWAY to school.
Ish. You know what?
NEVERMIND. I shall go let off steam by playing Santa Cubes.
I can't be F*cked to read up for Child Dev tmr.
-Banana peeled her last peel. *

-of weddings and a shameless man

2008-11-02T21:37:00.003+08:00

My first time actually HELPING out at a Malay wedding.
The job was pretty simple. Give out berkats and occasionally clear table.
But very tiring and HOTTTT. But it rained today so it's okay. (:
Overall, it wasn't bad. Very first experience.
I got paid $10. Hmm.. Haha.
Mira's blanje-ing me at Hei Sushi on the 15th as thanks for me helping out.
I love that woman. Haha. Not because she's taking me to eat sushi.
She's one of the people I run to when I have a problem.
Like Romaine. Next time I bring Romaine out to eat.
Hahahaha. But must be at PASIR RIS TAU. Hahahaha.
Eat at Hei Sushi with me . :D
At the end of everything, we went up to her auntie's house.
For the food to bring home(tapau) and my 'pay'.
One of her cousin's flirted with me. -.-"
And he wasn't at all cute. And he's 23 years old.
Shameless. Try to flirt with a 17 year old girl.
Tsk Tsk. I didn't know what to say. D:
It's so ....EEEEEEEEEEE can?
Oh well.
I was thinking, my taste in guys are the skinny, look chinese type(maybe tall too).
And yet my own boyfriend doesn't look like a chinese nor is he that skinny.
But he is tall. :D But I feel so short next to him.
Hahaha. What can I say? I'm just abnormal. Hahaha.
Pris would be overjoyed hearing me say I'm abnormal. >.<
I hope I remember to bring a chopstick.
I need to show Romaine how to tie/pin up hair with it.
Okay. Now I have to study for Monday's Language Arts quiz.
Lazyy... But have to. See yous!
^^.

-randomness

2008-11-01T19:19:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vc3sFK7ChpE
hehe. thats the Lemon Tree video naruto sasuke animation.
its so cute i tell you. :3

-lemon tree

2008-11-01T02:20:00.003+08:00

Lemon Tree

I'm sitting here in the boring room,

It's just another rainy sunday afternoon.

I'm wasting my time, I got nothing to do.

I'm hanging around, I'm waiting for you.

But nothing ever happens,

And I wonder..

I'm driving around in my car,

I'm driving too fast, I'm driving too far.

I'd like to change my point of view.

I feel so lonely, I'm waiting for you.

But nothing ever happens,

And I wonder..

I wonder how, I wonder why?

Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky.

And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree.

I'm turning my head up and down,

I'm turning, turning, turning, turning, turning around

And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree.

I'm sitting here, I miss the power.

I'd like to go out taking a shower,

But there's a heavy cloud inside my head.

I feel so tired, Put myself into bed.

While nothing ever happens,

And I wonder..

Isolation....... is not good for me

Isolation....... I don't want to -.

sit on the lemon-tree.

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy.

Baby anyhow i'll get another toy,

And everything will happen.

And you wonder..

I wonder how, I wonder why?

Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky.

And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree.

I'm turning my head, up and down.

I'm turning, turning, turning, turning, turning around

And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree.

And I wonder, wonder..

I wonder how, I wonder why?

Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky.

And all that I can see,

and all that I can see,

and all that I can see,

Is just a yellow lemon-tree.