Tuesday, January 03, 2006
First day of school already so bad.
I'm like anti-social there seyh.
Dah la the fun people that I kenal not there.
I'm like a loner.
Igh.
And I saw Fadhli SCRATCHING HIS BUTT during the portal explaination thing.
Igh.
Anyway,Firdaus sooo cute pkai sluar panjang!!!
(^^,)
Farhan terbiaser lah.
But he tuck in...
Uhh...
No offense but it looks kind of weird.
O.o
Anyway,when I saw him again today I felt like crying seyh.
I honestly thought I could handle it.
Everytime I see him,he's like so happy and all smiley.
I wish I could say the same myself.
Diam je most of the time.
Only smiley when Wati or Linn or any friends are around.
It's so sad.
Really.
That's I'm so pathetic.
Fadhli looks whacked in long pants.
*rofl*
Okla..
Not too bad.
Some of them already getting big headed from wearing sluar panjang.
Igh.
Insult the shorter ones and such.
When he did the NCC thing,god I almost cried.
I tahan.
Good lah.
At least can tahan.
At home I can cry.
Damnit.
Sometimes when I happen to look somewhere,he's there.
Just makes it harder.
Not that I'm not happy to see him.
In fact,I'm really happy.
But the fact is we can't be anything more.
That's what hurts.
Najib tu ape hal!!!!
Like bloody hell still Ceh Ceh Ceh!.
Diam lar.!
Da tkder pape pon masih gitu.
But then maybe he don't know lah.
Whatever.
I can't deny that I don't care for him anymore.
And what's with Syafiq calling me Akak.
Igh.
He only called me that to ask for help on his book review.
-_-""
Then started a looong trail of Kak and Akak.
Dots.
C'mon.,
Why can't me and him just go back to being normal friends right now.
Like crapping and not making sense.
-_-"
And yet not being so distant.
Unlike now.
I don't dare sms him.
Why can't se just forget we ever had something and just be friends without having to be so distant from each other????
Igh.
Headache la think of all this.
I can cry but it does nothing.
Just makes me feel a bit better.
And if Nabil were to hurry up and sms me,it wouldn't be so bad.
Eventhough he did wake me up at 12.30 plus or was it?
Was off in lalaland...
Then the vibration woke me up.
*rofl*
I woke up at 5.30 and mandi and 5.40.
Tired uh.
He said he didn't sleep much.
And he's jealous that I could sleep.
-_-""""""""""
Okay...
I'll be back.
Need to go eat.
-
Back.
I really miss him seyh.
Can't get him out now after seeing him.
I thought I'd be okay..
But I'm not.
Okay.
I need go to ask my parents some stuff first.
-
Ugh....
I think I'll visit habbo later.
As well as the school portal.
I'm going to bring memoirs of a geisha to read tomorrow.
In case there's going to be some extra time.
But Thursday going to start actual lessons.
Going to seriously have to get used to my class.
And stop being such an anti-social loner.
Oh goodness.
And she's still giving me the cold shoulder.
But like it was over wayy,wayy in June seyh.
Uhh.........
Oh.
And Mr Rizal just HAD to go move my kulintang next to Farhan's.
Ugh.
No.
I'm not complaining or anything but it's just sooo uncomfortable for me there.
And yeah.
I feel kinda self concious there.
*rofl*
No surprise.
I'm always that self concious around guys.
Esp guys like M.
I could never look him in the face.
:x
Nvm.
NABILLLL.
Maner kau??!
Ish.
I'm getting more emotionally attached to those 2 kiddos.
*rofl*
Can't exactly consider Nabil a kiddo.
*lmao*
More like badass.
:x
Syafiq...
Yeah.
Adik.
*roflmao*
Aik.
What's so wrong?.
He calls me Akak.
*lol*
Rizal kinda scolded me for talking to my dad on the phone.
HELL-O !
It's my dad for gosh sakes!
Takkan I just let it ring kan??
Ish.
Unreasonable.
Haha.
I'm rambling again.
Oh.
Performing on the 12th.
Next Thursday.
Uhhm.....
We're moving down to the first floor.
:x
Yeah....
Hopefully,Rizal doesn't put me next to Farhan again.
MMPHH.
TUCK INN!
*rofl*
I'm going to bet he's going to look sooo cute pakai sluar panjang.
Hehe.
I'm sure you know who I'm talking about.
Faris pakai smart seyh.
*lol*
And Kak Aisyah pegi Anugerah TAK AJAKKK.
>.<
FAUZIEEE.
Hahaha.
Da giler nii.
Feeqa pon da tergiler kan si Fauzie.
*lol*
Entah la..
I'm going to pretend.
Pretend that everything's okay.
Omg....
Those people CICAK pon takut seyh.
>_<
"Adik" aku online.
Weeee.
*lol*
"chak chak chak kedondong"
>_<
That part of the song is still in my head.
Hopefully,this year we can go jalan raye together again.
It was soo fun.
It's still really clear in my mind.
Hadi and Farhan tergiler2 ambik gambar uh.
XD
Fadhli being a lamo in front of the cam while most of us were still eating at umah Farhan.
Giler btol seyh.
Then Yat's adik2 sooo cuteee!!
The adik lelaki so looks like him.
*lol*
The adik prempuan was more quiet.
She sat behind me.
I asked her name.
Awwwwww!!!
Little kids like that are sooo cute!
(^^,)
But alas.
No fun until EOY exams are over.
Hohum...
So until then,it's just the memories.
And how the guys can cope playing during this time also I don't know.
FIR-PISANG CUTE LAHHH.
Walalala!
Cubit pipi baru kene tuuu!!!!!.
GERAMMM.
Walalala!!!!!!!!
Igh!
Iunno why I blogged today..
Uhm...
Maybe too much for me to really handle?
OH!!!
MEER-MEER!!!
I haven't asked him how his first day was!!!
*rofl*
Don't mind the nickname for him.
Ahah.
I'm just giler.
OMG!!!!
CSI Miami tonight!!!
I gotta watch it!!!
*lol*
For this half an hour,I'm going to do some Bio reading.
(:
I'm going to show that I can do it.
I can do well.
That I'm not useless.
That I can pass.
That I can!!!
(:
Well...
That's it.
(: (:
Byeee!!
Nytes!!
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