IT'S A HOLIDAY! technically just means no school. BVSS used as a nomination thingo,iunno what,so NO SCHOOL!yeayyY!

ANYWAY,

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Wednesday,26th April 2006

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Someone just had to say that there was enough time for us to clear the school and prepare for that thingum. Haiz. But ME was not so bad. Some exercises and push ups bc of some incorrigible people. Spoilerrrs. And Fiqah says his new haircut makes him look smarter! Hahah... Riiight. Just reminds me of Sec 2 when he just had his haircut.

Geog was on 4th floor again.. 3e3 not using the night study room anymore.... Haiz.. No more airconnnn.... Geog was kind of boring again but so what?.........

Went for E Maths after that. Mr Gan went "SWIMMING". Gross mannn.... Why he sweats so much until his WHOLE shirt is wet when the rest of us DON'T. Didn't understand whaaaaaaaat he was talking about again. Imma fail E Maths this year too..

Go back up for Physics. Late comers hadta sing "twinkle2 little star". Riiiiiight. No comments.

Took a looooooooong time in the "dunney". Haha.. Came back and they already almost done marking the Physics resource book. After Physics, recess and whatever that came.

A Maths almost put me to sleep. AGAIN. Rarrr. Having remedial on Friday.

Marked stuff while those with unfinished corrections did them in English. Then discussed for Sunday Market in our groups. Whee! Then DISMISSAL!

Fiiqah and Hana couldn't go makan with us so I just outed with Siti at first. Met up with Nad and Fiqah later on. Joel and Azhari joined us later. Duh much... He has to send Fiqah home kan?... Went to MacD's but after dropping off at interchange,it was heavy downpour!! So mepek. Only Joel and I had umbrellas. Share 3 people to one umbrella.Not very helpful but better than nothing. Shared with Fiqah and Azhari while Joel shared with Siti and Nad. At least our shirts was NOT wet. But we still got wet. Freezing cold in MacD's. Ate and left the couple alone to chat. Haha. The rest of us were geramming Joel's looooooooooong fingers and uber nice nails. So pretty mann! He just mellowed out listening to his discman. Riiiight. Finally left at about 5 plus or so. I got bored and I had to send Nad home. So Nad,Siti and me cabut first leaving Joel and the couple there. I heard they played T&D until 6.15. Haha. Cool eh. XD

Stoned at home for ahwhile then siaped for tuition. Had a test and I can tell you I FAILED IT.

Stopped over at Mak's place the Hawkerant to celebrate my uncle's birthday. Didn't feel too good. Finally went home.

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TODAYY!!! Woke up feeling a lot betterrr.But late tho. Siti called me up and we made plans to meet up b4 going to Fiiqah's house. Arrived there and spotted 7 CATS! So manyyy! Watched chicken little after visiting 7-11 to get some junk food. Waited for the rest to arrive. We got bored and ate some more. Haha. They knocked 3 times but Fiiqah didn't hear although Siti and I did. Paiseh seyh Fiiqah. Wakaka. Joel spiked his hair again. His wax NEVER seems to finish. Since two of their group members didn't come,we just lepaked around the living room. Listening to jiwang songs and mrepek comments here and there. Fiiqah,Hana and Siti kept saying me and Joel sajak just because both of us were wearing black and looking punk. Riiiiight..... Ended up playing T&D again. So funny larr! Fiiqah had to act like MONKEY! Siti had to act like a dog,I had to jump around squealing in happiness like some sesat little girl,Joel had to sing,Hana had to dance. Cracked each other up. Sooooo fun. A few secrets were let out here and there. Haha... Never got around to studying there. Joel go home early. Want to go meet up with Azhari or sth. Then after he left,we played some mrepek game of ABC then the "11 lelaki,5 prempuan" thing. Mi is my lucky guy. (: Awwwww. Haha. We were that bored. But it was addictive. Finally go home.. Balik and stoned. Still bored... And now I'm bored of blogging. Wakaka. MR FAEEZ BETTER TAG NOW. Hahah.

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Toodles!

The past few days have been a blur to me and yet not quite.

After that dream thing...2.4 km run...Holiday and hw pile-up..Mid-years around the corner..

Haiz..And him. I swear I'm wasting my time worrying on that.

Seriously...I need to buck up!!I skipped tuition twice bc I was tired from 2.4 and the other thing.

The Holla Back Crew Finals. Click5 was there mann. They rockeddd. (:

He's always busy with hw, so fine.I feel like giving up.This is going nowhere.

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I currently help out at the Cafe but I NEVER know anything.Don't even know when is my shift.

Or whateverrrr. The crapped English research I'm s'posed to do is not done.

I don't understand what has to be doneeee! THAT'S SAD. I wasn't listening again.

WME is just pissifying larh sometimes..I come in there good mood,and THEY spoil it.

Who the hell do you think you are seyh..........But whatever...

Extremely good mood today.Didn't shout at them. Just didn't give a damn.

And he is to thank for my good mood. Loads of smiling today and blushingness. XD

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Relieved my budak kechik-ness during the holiday last week.Played AQ for the weekend.

Hahah.I'm a vampire sub-race.I know.Childish.Kakak hooked me onto click and point games.

I got to see him on Thursday bc Mr Rizal was doing percussion and I didn't play anything.

Walked aimlessly around for awhile,watching him.Then teman-ed Hanan to blajar her thing.

They play with water again.I didn't get to see him once we got out of school.

The regular bunch of us teman-ed Fiqah to wait for Azhari..So slow.He came,we left.

I went back to being depressed bc there's no kemajuan in where this is going. ):

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Je t'aime...Yes...I still miss you and love you...
I never forgot.I never meant to hurt you.I just wanted to forget the pain.

And it comes back to haunt me...I feel so guilty..That you still reply me..

I don't deserve you.You deserve much better.

I know I'm a pissifying person with a temper and impatientness....

I changed for you.I wanted to be a good girlfriend to you..I tried.

But you left me in a million pieces. (retarded shit me is overreacting)

I don't blame you.I never did.

I just miss you...

Because I still love you...

Je' taime Mimi........

I had such a wonderfuuuuuuulllly sweeeeet and happy dream....

Kalau lah it can happen for real....I'd be jumping for joy. (:

Unfortunately,dreams are wishes our hearts make..

And sometimes,no matter how hard/much we wish,it doesn't come true..

Awh....Anyway,on with the dream!

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Ct,Joe,iM and me were sitting around at canteen.At first.Then slowly other ppl come join.

His friends,Saida...Then they started kacauing me lar.Like biase...

And he stood up for me. (: I think we were waiting for someone to finish remedial.

I was reading that mly book.Aku duduk sblh dier...When I read,I like to sandar on the wall,etc.

Then bc I sit next to him,I sandar on him lah to act as wall.

Dlm mimpi,he put his arm around me...Happy giler lahhh.. XD Lagi2,hujan.COLD.

Tapi tak sgt thanks to him.Entah camner,ended up being at my house..

Lepak2.Sitting around in my room ( o.O ) doing nothing.Yg tak paham is why Joel ader bt not Az.

Haha...Nevermind..Entah.Anyway,he supposedly wrote me a note with sweet stuffs in it.

Couldn't help smiling.I still rmb what was written..So sweet....

So nak katekan we patch back in the dream. ( just a dream. ): )

Which he got so malu after that that he wanted to go home but my dad tangkap him.

Why? Ask him to sembahyang.Uhh...I have weird dreams. XD

And then we went to the playground again and it was like old times all over again.

On that same bench,side by side.Talking..Difference in dream was that his arm around me. (:

Kind of sick to you people but it's sweet to me....... (:

Which was why I came to school this morning in a very happy mood and Geog spoiled it.

Anyway,just before I woke up,he sent me home and kissed me on my cheek.

Unfortunately,I had to wake up.....But I know lah such things in my dream won't happen...

I don't think he even cares anymore so why do I still love him? ='(

All I want is for us to be friends and he wont even give me that chance.

I hope you can understand how I'm feeling because.....

It really is sakit hati when you know you can't have that person that you love..

And you can't even tell the person that you love him.. ='(

I always feel like crying when I remember this....Because I can't do anything about it.

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Joe's really sweet to send Iqa home as many times possible...Looking at them..

Reminds me of what he always did for me..Go out of his way just to send me home.

Eventhough he didn't have anything on those days..Sanggup tunggu outside sch.

Either with Idoe or some other friend of his...And he'd meet me at the gate. (:

Tak cakap banyak,but he always made me feel loved and happy.

I still rmb that I was carrying alot of stuff home once,but I didn't walk to bus stop with him.

He got on same bus but I thought he was going home..So I didn't say anything.

Got off at my stop and he followed me and took almost all the stuff in my hands.

Terperanjat but I took back my own file..Guilty lah..He carry my stuff....... :(

And yeah.His intention was to walk me home but he was afraid his friends dpt tau.

He used to be scared that they would kacau me.Which is so nice of him to care that much..

He did many2 things for me which is why even after 4 mths or so,I still remember.......

One personality trait of me is that the memories are fresh in my mind eventhough

the incident happened long ago...Esp when they make me happy.................... (:

When we broke up,I didn't cry that much in school but mainly at home..

So people didn't think too much of it.And when I met Az,I thought everything da okay...

But then,he broke up with me..But we are friends now.And that's fine with me...

They all shock when I told them..Was it that unseeing?

Asal korang ingat aku ngan dier relationship nak tahan lamer pon aku tak tau.....

Nad kate yg kiteorang suit each other very much...Eventho we have our many differences..

Then what about me and iM? Tak suit? ): Dah lah.I don't want to think much about this.

I can cry all I want,but I know he's not coming back.. ='( .....................Not ever...

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Sweet memories I'll never forget.I hold them near and dear to my heart..

I love you and always have.. I miss you.... <3

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