Wednesday, April 05, 2006
I had such a wonderfuuuuuuulllly sweeeeet and happy dream....
Kalau lah it can happen for real....I'd be jumping for joy. (:
Unfortunately,dreams are wishes our hearts make..
And sometimes,no matter how hard/much we wish,it doesn't come true..
Awh....Anyway,on with the dream!
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Ct,Joe,iM and me were sitting around at canteen.At first.Then slowly other ppl come join.
His friends,Saida...Then they started kacauing me lar.Like biase...
And he stood up for me. (: I think we were waiting for someone to finish remedial.
I was reading that mly book.Aku duduk sblh dier...When I read,I like to sandar on the wall,etc.
Then bc I sit next to him,I sandar on him lah to act as wall.
Dlm mimpi,he put his arm around me...Happy giler lahhh.. XD Lagi2,hujan.COLD.
Tapi tak sgt thanks to him.Entah camner,ended up being at my house..
Lepak2.Sitting around in my room ( o.O ) doing nothing.Yg tak paham is why Joel ader bt not Az.
Haha...Nevermind..Entah.Anyway,he supposedly wrote me a note with sweet stuffs in it.
Couldn't help smiling.I still rmb what was written..So sweet....
So nak katekan we patch back in the dream. ( just a dream. ): )
Which he got so malu after that that he wanted to go home but my dad tangkap him.
Why? Ask him to sembahyang.Uhh...I have weird dreams. XD
And then we went to the playground again and it was like old times all over again.
On that same bench,side by side.Talking..Difference in dream was that his arm around me. (:
Kind of sick to you people but it's sweet to me....... (:
Which was why I came to school this morning in a very happy mood and Geog spoiled it.
Anyway,just before I woke up,he sent me home and kissed me on my cheek.
Unfortunately,I had to wake up.....But I know lah such things in my dream won't happen...
I don't think he even cares anymore so why do I still love him? ='(
All I want is for us to be friends and he wont even give me that chance.
I hope you can understand how I'm feeling because.....
It really is sakit hati when you know you can't have that person that you love..
And you can't even tell the person that you love him.. ='(
I always feel like crying when I remember this....Because I can't do anything about it.
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Joe's really sweet to send Iqa home as many times possible...Looking at them..
Reminds me of what he always did for me..Go out of his way just to send me home.
Eventhough he didn't have anything on those days..Sanggup tunggu outside sch.
Either with Idoe or some other friend of his...And he'd meet me at the gate. (:
Tak cakap banyak,but he always made me feel loved and happy.
I still rmb that I was carrying alot of stuff home once,but I didn't walk to bus stop with him.
He got on same bus but I thought he was going home..So I didn't say anything.
Got off at my stop and he followed me and took almost all the stuff in my hands.
Terperanjat but I took back my own file..Guilty lah..He carry my stuff....... :(
And yeah.His intention was to walk me home but he was afraid his friends dpt tau.
He used to be scared that they would kacau me.Which is so nice of him to care that much..
He did many2 things for me which is why even after 4 mths or so,I still remember.......
One personality trait of me is that the memories are fresh in my mind eventhough
the incident happened long ago...Esp when they make me happy.................... (:
When we broke up,I didn't cry that much in school but mainly at home..
So people didn't think too much of it.And when I met Az,I thought everything da okay...
But then,he broke up with me..But we are friends now.And that's fine with me...
They all shock when I told them..Was it that unseeing?
Asal korang ingat aku ngan dier relationship nak tahan lamer pon aku tak tau.....
Nad kate yg kiteorang suit each other very much...Eventho we have our many differences..
Then what about me and iM? Tak suit? ): Dah lah.I don't want to think much about this.
I can cry all I want,but I know he's not coming back.. ='( .....................Not ever...
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Sweet memories I'll never forget.I hold them near and dear to my heart..
I love you and always have.. I miss you.... <3
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