Saturday, October 30, 2010
Natasha is a 5 year old girl.Her class was vibrant and cheerful.There was a boy she disliked very much because he bullied her often.In the first 3/4 year in that class, she had friends who stood by her.But by the last 1/4 end, she only hand a handful.Why? They blame her and hate her forstanding up to the bully.The bully had turned on them too.Now they all shared the burden of being bullied.But they blamed it on her.Everybody was happy when it was only Natasha being affected.Natasha was affected for 3/4 of the year.Natasha's puppy told her to stand up for herself.Now everybody doesn't like her for
standing up for herself.She doesn't understand why.The only time she decided to save herself from the bully, everyone turned their backs on her.Giving encouraging words but not really there for her.Natasha could only look on with dispair as her friends became the fence that had once protected her.She was now on the other side where as everyone else was happy together, excluding her because she was the root of the problem now.Not the bully, but her.In the last burst of the year, she
decides to go ahead with her plan and refused to back down from her stand.Occasionally recieving words of "Hi!" and "Bye!" but no true hand of help for a shoulder to cry on appeared...............................................................
You write the ending and tell me what should happen to her.Is it fair for Natasha to be bullied?Is it fair for everyone to turn away when she needed help the most?Is it fair to save yourself when you could have saved a friend and save yourself?:/Enlighten me, please.Because I sure don't.If you are my friend, can you come and give me a helping hand too?That saves both me and you?I've had an offer that I will take up.But can the rest of my friends do the same too? :/
2:29 PM
If you took it personal, I'm sorry.If you think it's you, it might not be you.If I still smile at you, it's not you.If I still interact with you, it's not you.But you will never know, will you?Because others take offence at what is meant for you.And you are oblivious to that fact.I don't know if I should be thankful or hate you for it.Side note:Anyway, I'm glad you're out of his life.You can't pollute his world with your disgusting ideas and exaggerated nonsense.You know what?I'm glad you're gone.Labels: `
2:04 PM
Friday, October 29, 2010
Patterns. You've fallen into a pattern because I never went against the 'system'.Now when I rebel, the system feels like its falling apart and you try to put me back in my place.Placating me with reasons and niceties.I feel like dropping out of polytechnic altogether.If I didn't, I wouldn't have met this wonderful guy.I wouldn't have met wonderful friends.I wouldn't have met YOU.You are the biggest pimple in my life.I wish someone could just pop you.Eradicating you from the face of this earth.I never thought I could want to kill someone so much.You make me feel like slaughtering a herd.Like what the fuck.You are a freaking penguin who thinks she can rule the world with you cynicism.How the fuck are you supposed to do that when you can't get so much as a herd.Scoff and sneers behind your back.You should've noticed.I fucking hate you.Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.You porcine faced cur.
1:10 PM
Ms Rajoo did a mini English lesson/cram.Which was cool?She got a little bit dry somewhere but the fun part was where she was actually teaching us how to insult someone in a way that isn't obvious.Thanks, Ms Rajoo. VERY insightful. Haha.Gave us an example of a guy who was stranded at the airport and was demanding for a flight back home and the new counter girl was rude to him (if you think about it).To Hallow? Or not to Hallow?Am I even allowed to? :/To be at a girl's house until late, watching scary movies and eating pizza, with guys around as well. Hmm..Honestly, no idea. ):On a different note, politics will be politics.You can't avoid them, can't work around them, have to work WITH/ON them.What sort of logic is that?? But yes, it rings true.In the words of Dan, if you can't beat them, join them!Although his words are more.. sinister to say the least.Meh. HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN.I'M GOING TO DRESS UP WITH ROTTING SKIN ON MY FACE TMR/SATURDAY. HAHA.ONLINE SEARCH ON SELF-MAKE UP TIPS FOR ZOMBIE.I still hate politics.In other words, I hate politicians. ;)
12:29 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2010
It's okay for you to be selfish but not me?When you never had to go through what I did, and sure, you're being extremely nice to me now, but is it really fair?I really don't see why you can't give a little.I would've been just as okay if you had told me straight away that you're not comfortable with it.It's not like I bite, right.?Sometimes, I really don't understand you.I seriously hate politics.I never want to start work unless its at Agape Little Uni(JW branch).Damnit. I miss the environment there.When you actually felt like you belonged.Fuck this.
3:29 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Ask yourself this:
"Cause and effect moves the world... The outcome of today is a snowball of what we all did yesterday. What did we do to make it this way? Or rather, what did we NOT do?"`
Think I'm not tired of giving in for the past 30 months? Think I'm a bot who does what she's told? Think there's only ONE side to the story?
Ever thought of what your actions spoke to the world when you obviously never really spared a thought after all. When you only think of yourself, isn't it justly that I take the time NOW, to stand up for myself after playing the sympathy card for so long?
Wake up and smell the cow poop. You think its unfair for me to do something so drastic; its about time i actually did something for myself rather than spare a thought for you.
Never did I ever condone against your actions for so long but I deeply regret it now.
Screw this and politics.No more Miss Nice Girl.
12:31 AM
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Seeing people in love makes me happy too.Ahhhhhhhhhhh.Visited Agape with KaiTing. Saw the kids.Epic cuteness. They still remember me. ! Didn't get to the my lovely K2 children though.Got a hug from Mabel. I'm so touched. (:Dan had his NAPFA. I didn't manage to ask how he did, but from the lack of news, I'm guessing it did not go well..Doesn't matter anyway.I love you, Muhammad Danial. (:`-ifahchan
2:16 AM
