Wednesday, October 19, 2011
aaaaah~I miss your smell, our talks, your presence.
It's lonely without you around.
It's like BMT all over again. ):
Oh well. Life's like that.
On other things, my hearing has almost recovered fully.
Still, developed habits that work around using just one ear can come in useful.
I stopped blocking out my surrounding noise/background by just listening to music with my left ear PLUS the volume is on the 2nd level. And I can still hear the music.
Hurr. Never know how much you're actually damaging your hearing by listening to music using headphones, etc, especially at loud volumes.
Dan has drilled the habit of keeping fit in me, even if it is a small effort as compared to what he does.
(INSERT THUMBS UP HERE.)
For the past week during his block leave, I spent most of it with him; just being with him.
It's amazing how plans don't work out the way you want them to, but in the end, it turns out more special and even memorable than you expected.
The small things that he does for me, the level of understanding that he shows to someone I deem as undeserving(in other words, myself); I can never understand it.
The heart to heart talks that we have, spans over countless of hours.
I could never get bored of talking to you, hearing your voice. I could never be sick of someone like you.
The touch of your hand, your warmth, without words speak volumes about how much you care for me.
I wonder if I do the same for you?
If at some point, I'm not the one for you, could I do what was best for you?
Because I know, I am a selfish human being..
Do I truly deserve to be this happy right now? :/
I want to keep that smile of yours as long as possible. Even if it's selfish of me, I want you to keep smiling even if I wasn't in the picture, even if I can't let you go from my heart.
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You've saved me countless of times, maybe one day, I could save you too. :')
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